Fugged up day
lost hp. pre-exams stress. mensus.
TERRIBLE.
The person who took my hp and not return it deserves the penalty of DEATH.
Whoever you are, BAH.
PREPOSTEROUS.
My precious photos and msges and contacts and everything sweet.
BOO.
posted @ 12:43 PM
A.L.L.
i knew A.L.L. is a must-watch. waited for months. when it finally got released, i couldn't watch. i waited for months. know the pain incurred.
posted @ 11:59 AM
panic button
I'm panicking. finally. But this time, i took longer to feel the press the panic button. goodness gracious.
posted @ 1:45 PM
swensens
I am going to puke. and burp. and do everything disgusting.
went for GP remedial. then after, SWENSENS.
ordered fish baked rice and deep fried mushrooms. really really good. But i must stress that the deep fried mushrooms is rather disappointing coz they were pretty puny. should go to bugis the next time round.
What made mi almost puke was GIANT EARTHQUAKE. 8 GIANT scoops of CHOCOLATEY ice-cream. normally, ppl either go with a mixture of fruits and choc. or fruits alone. but 6 of us ordered ALL chocolates. oh mann. different types of chocs. it was good and sticky and chewy and all. Then it was too much for me to handle. David made mi lost all appetite with him eating a big teaspoon of caramel at one go with his brown teeth. Got too full. had a little of cramps. mann. 6 of us ate 100+ bucks of food. no occasion. Just lunch. oh mannn...im not gonna eat choc ice-cream for a long long time.
What a feast.
posted @ 5:56 AM
miss you
miss someone??
Message:
Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible because u think tat he/she doesn't miss u?
Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him/her.
Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her.
Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television but thinking of her missing the final episode of your favourite show.
Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u wen out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future.
Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online.
When u realise that he/she isn't online and did not return your page, u will start worrying if he/she is okay.
Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid.
If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know.
if u miss him/her too, tell them.
Don't let them wait.
-very nice extract though it may seem cliche. that's how i felt all along, but i dunno how to put it to words. just proves tt im not thinking too much, but im missing too much. sigh.-
posted @ 3:00 PM
no point
It's no point keeping a blog that's meant for us. blog? failed. tagboard? i hope it works. but i think it's failing. no point...
i dun usually do this. but since im in depression mode, let mi paste this.
Only real men know how to treat the woman heloves. This is the sweetest thing in the world. Read, Learn, and Put into good use.
1. Tell her she is beautiful, not hot. [Yeah, it shows that you love her, not her body]
2 . Hold her hand at any moment even if it just for a second. [It shows how much you appreciate her presence]
3 . Kiss her on the forehead. [It's a loving gesture, helping her feel secure]
4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to. [even SMS or missed-call will do... Nothing can beat waking up to the voice/message of your loved one]
5 . Always tell her how beautiful she is, no matter what she's wearing. [Again, it shows how much you treasure her]
6 . When she is upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you. [sigh... need I saymore?]
7 . Recognize the small things . . . THEY USUALLY MEAN THE MOST! [it's the tiny bits and pieces that count]
8 . Call her baby.
9 . Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is. [trust me, girls love it when guys sing to them]
10 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with. [Yeah, and show her to them]
11 . Write her notes. [to make her feel that she's always on your mind]
12 . Introduce her to family and friends as your girlfriend. [it shows how much you want her to be a part of you]
13 . Play with her hair.
14 . Pick her up, tickle her and play-wrestle with her.
15 . Sit in the park and just talk to her. [you never know what will she say]
16 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes. [but make sure that it's the right time for jokes]
17 . Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because you missed her.
18 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.[sigh...heaven...]
19 . Carve your names into a tree. [for memory sake]
20 . If she's mad at you, apologize because SHE is always right.
21 . CUDDLE.
22 . Bring her flowers just because u love her. [although some girls will say that they hate flowers, but still, chances of them being touched is very, very high]
23 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone. [this means a LOT to her,and it shows a lot about you as well]
24 . Look her in the eyes and smile.[Believe me it works..it has its own magic]
25 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants. [you trust her, don't you?]
26 . Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing. [but don't step on her feet too often]
27 . Kiss her in the rain.
(P.S: the [...] wordings in the brackets are not done by me.)
i wanted to paste this in THAT blog. but i guess u won't read it. so i pasted in MY blog. I didn't mean to give up when i said it. I can't bear to. But you just didn't know. Girls just like to do foolish things.
posted @ 5:07 PM
Im so hurt. And no one's there. not even a shoulder. not even you. Im not crying as usual. Crying in my heart. it hurts alot. really. very much. rip my heart apart. you're not there. you're just not there. when i need you the most. you're not there. should i fight for it. or not. you won't understand. like how i dun understand you.
posted @ 4:07 PM
music for life
2-3 yrs ago, my ambition was to become a piano teacher. Simple enuf? No. Until last yr, i found out that taking this 9-9 job can probably kill you. I haven't experience yet. After As? Definitely. I gonna find myself a studio and stick my ass on the piano's seat.
This yr, after stepping down, my ambition has not changed. I added more in fact. Clarinet. I had it planned. No clarinet for now. But if i had the capital, i'd afford one. But, i can't now. Piano as first priority. Finish my theory. After As go teach part time. At the same time, take my practical performing cert and then diploma. So the money by teaching part time would probably be invested in paying my fees for dip, and not all on shopping therapy. If by teaching part time too allows reserved money, i would really wish to buy a clarinet. AHH. my goal. so far yet so near. playing for an orchestra with such magical fingers if u have wad it takes...is simply majestic.
Hmm, dreaming makes dreams work? dunno...ughhh...suddenly wq zaps mi back to reality. "Next fri econs essay paper hor?" waaaaa...academic life...is...ugh. Sometimes i was thinking why didn't i take art. i mean 100% As & Bs in NY. It's a free takeaway. sigh. mayb i dunno the implications. but, look at econs. SIGH. all right...have fun studying peeps.
posted @ 4:27 AM
wish
3 more months to this ladehh's birthday. Or, u can see it as 3 more months to prelims. ha. I prefer the more optimistic choice.
Aniwae, not here to brag bout my bdae. I suddenly have a new wish. I wan to have my frens back again. tt is more of grooving out, bumping ard, kicking each other's ass, jump, shit together. and cry together. maybe not again. but i at least wish to establish back again. And i can't blame these 2 yrs to pass like a bullet. And all tt i had in mind was keeping up with the norm. What caused me not to realise, is that unknowingly, i lost the fun that i once had with my pals. Whenever the bullet stops for a moment, i slack. slacking means rotting at home here. i refuse to establish stronger bonds.
tt's my wish after As. phew. haven't groove for a loooonggggg time. hope my butt's not stagnant and rusty. :)
listening to simple plan's 'perfect'-
I'm sorry...I can't be...perrrfecttt...
posted @ 7:45 AM
it's not easy
Obstacles are never easy.
saying the solutions are 1% of emotional turmoil.
practising it involves 100% of your emotions.
Sometimes, you don't have to search for answers.
You don't have to ask. To be happy, believe in yourself.
believe that you know the right answer without asking.
...
I dun wan to continue typing anymore. All these preachings are in my heart.
I really want to thank you.
As much as we all have flaws and i've seen through yours,
and u've seen mine,
under all these imperfection,
we see perfection.
I dun have to ask and torture ourselves anymore.
I just have to understand. and,
believe.
I dun have to ask.
posted @ 5:51 AM
sacrifice
you gritted your teeth.
you held your breath.
you took my hand.
you suffered so much on your own.
but i, i was selfish.
i thought the world was all of my own.
you sacrificed.
you accepted my flaws.
you were lost.
you wanted me all along to be happy.
but i, i was happy.
until i know how much u painstakingly sacrificed.
all i did after was to cry.
all i did after was to blame thyself.
all i did, was for my own.
i thought loving was simple.
i thought loving was easy.
until, you let me see your problems.
and then i realised,
what a fool had i become,
to not be by your side all along,
but rather,
you were by my side quietly.
you didn't grumble.
you didn't had your joy.
you stood up for me.
above all,
you never give up.
all you did,
was for me.
if you speak of the word sacrifice,
why can't i.
i want to let you, not the world, know
that i can learn my mistakes.
i can accept your flaws.
i want to share.
i want to be understanding.
i want to deserve the title you granted me.
i want you to realise,
all you did,
and all i did,
were for us.
and all you do,
and all i do,
are for us.
posted @ 8:56 AM
waiting for tuition
gonna attend my 1st ever econs tuition soon. waiting to go out...hmmm. wonder how it will b like...
Anw, i had a really good laugh at this site! check this out!
LORD OF THE RINGS
http://210.61.218.118/grm.cdn.hinet.net/xuite/73/55/11619706/blog_14587/dv/235667/235667.wmvHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA!!!!!!!!! language was gross yet hilarious. oh mann...
to jlo, happy 18th bdaeeee!
posted @ 1:25 AM
males and females of the world unite
"woo. she's so pretty."
"waaa...she's getting prettier and prettier each day..."
"i think she looks really photogenic!"
"hot...hot...she's damn hot..."
*no words came out from the mouth but eyes were staring at the long legs, esp if girls wore mini skirts*
Don't ever do this having ur gf by ur side. You often see mommies forgiving papas when papas shift and set their eyes on little mei meis. Often, mommies watch these pretty ladies with papas too. What if mamas set their eyes on hunks? What if your future wife 'gorges' herself with Men's Health and sth like 'Hunk search'? Why can guys so easily indulge in FHM, Maxim and who knows wad...tonnes of porn. bargh.
Find me a man or a male teen, not a boy, who doesn't indulge in such thoughts. not even once. I would be really really surprised. I have short legs. I have no good figure. And I am simply non-photogenic. BUT i'll never consider lengthening my legs and go for plastic surgery. You know how men's spouses always want to keep their men? through beauty and makeup and surgery and a whole lot of crap. wear the sexiest bikinis on earth. all becoz of men.
Now u know why there are replicates of females looking alike coz they rebonded their hair, eat slimming pills, get the same good figure, wear similar bikinis and ya da ya da. well, if ani female is fat, she's out. sad huh. Now wad bout the guys? hmmm. u see fat boys down the street and some becoz of their hyper-activeness, they're cute. uncles have biggg bellies and they're still loved by their wives.
I now see the rising trend of male teens keeping mistresses and vice versa for the female teens. at the age of 19? girls flirt. boys flirt. and it's sick.
or perhaps, is it time for me to adapt to the modern and liberated world?
posted @ 3:21 AM
Phew. Sure is going to be tough.
FIRST UP...
THE BADS:
Im hot-headed. Very easily hot-tempered. BAD BAD BAD.
Im as stubborn as a mule.
I dislike tummy. u know? fats? tummy? ugh.
I particularly moan and groan and roar and scream at ppl who lie to me.
I got a weak heart.
I think i got high blood pressure. Did I mention I get stressed up over the slightest stuff?
OH OH OH. I procrastinate ppl who don't respect me. U really need to take a good look at yourself.
My eyes can pop out. BEWARE.
I think I love bitching.
I eat irregularly. Tat explains me not growing up.
Oh yes. One more. I wake up when the sun sets. COOL HOR.
NOW FOR THE GOODS! YIPPEE!
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I love socialising. alot alot!
I want to become a model of my own world. YAYA. DREAM ON.
I love those who love me. Embrace, cherish and all nicey stuff! *HUGSSSS*
Ah. Yes. I love colouring my toe nails, buying chunky earrings & being pretty though i dun think im worth it.
I LOVE PARADOXES OF LIFE. I LURVE, LURRRVEEEE, LURRRRRRRVVVVEEEEEEEE THEM.
FOR GDNESS SAKE, DUN CLASSIFY ME AS 'CY LOVES TO BE A PRINCESS!' YUCKS. MY TERM: RAGDOLL. ugly and tattered. damn cool.
I can go on forever. I'll just stop here. Know more bout me thru my entries! *wriggles my nose*