My days in SRJC-Thanks-5th
YQ, if you are reading this, I want to let you know that you've been a really superb, wonderful, everything that describes you as a great sectional leader.
From the 1st day I met you in Band, I knew you are a responsible sectional leader. And you have proved to me so. I cherish these rushing 6 weeks that I'm with you. And you've certainly brighten up my days. You've been there when I wanted to shed my tears. You lent me your shoulder even though I suddenly do not want to cry.
Here, I wanna let you know that I have this blog full of my memories. Most prob i wrote this down because I might just forget everything. I have short term memo, you know it. That you can slowly take your time to admire my blog. You better do. *I'm warning you* haha!
I wanna let you know that on one of the headlines, there is a short story about me liking a guy twice, and that i've met him again today for hi-5 meeting and that I'm not sure whether I still like him. I just want to let you know about my 'disastrous' love life, even though i'm onli 16+. Read through my stories whenever you are free.
Lastly, I want to thank you for all the great memories that I've had with not only the band members, but to you as well. The twinkling little stars, esp 'orion' that we looked together (I could only point out those 3 stars that were in line, and you pointed out the rest for me), the time when kerui and me caught you and a gal on vday together *wink*, the time when you had a minor quarrel with fadzilla, the time when you sms me, the time when you calm me down bout my worrying of 'o' level results, the taking of crazy photos together after Bb concert, you giving me the encouragement by smiling at me during the performance, you giving the clarinet j1s the boosting of confidence and how you brighten our lives...I have too many moments to say. Thanks for everything. You will definitely not be forgotten.
posted @ 3:12 PM
[SRJC BAND-Bb CONCERT]
After the collection of my results, i head back hm to get myself changed for my finale that i've practiced hard for these 6 weeks-BAND CONCERT. The attire was black. Purely black. Nice. I headed to SRJC and walked with 2 of my band members to school. I was quite worried bout the performance. Yet, the results for 'O's boost my confidence.
We had a subsidy for burgers, fries and fizzy drinks from Mac. I ate only half a burger and a few fries. That's for the whole day. I drank lots. Weird me. I still ain't no appetite that very day.
Then, we went to LT5 to rehearse. Got quite excited bout my very first band concert with a group of friends whom again, i had barely known for 2 months. My seniors, my teachers, my conductor, my 'colleagues'...Sch's symphony band is a cca to bond everyone together, to let us work in team-spiritedness. It was a cca that i didn't really regret joining. Everyone was doing their part even if not up to their fullest. The rehearsal was in a hurry due to the lack of time. I was then afraid that the performance won't be that good.
Before I know it, almost all the seats were filled up. I told myself, "Today is the day of finale, where i practiced so hard for 6 weeks and i should give my best shot." I demanded a high expectation of myself for this performance. Still, it was my 1st time to perform in a band. It was so exciting. Suddenly, all the memories that we've been through these 6 weeks came rushing into my mind. I saw my friends, my teacher, my family streaming into LT5. I felt good.
The concert started. Initially, my right hand shivered a little. Then, as i go on, i took deep breaths. Slowly, the good side got the better of me. I started to feel relax and enjoy the performance by us, by the one and only symphonic band in SRJC. Throughout the performance, yr3 friend who sat beside me gave me the remark "I'm so proud of you." My heart jumped for joy. I thanked her. And i saw my sectional leader smiling at me. The silent compliments made me feel wonderful. I saw my mom smiling and enjoying. I saw my family members and friends clapping for the band. The moment, the state of happiness reached my peak. No words can describe how happy i felt today. Bb Concert was a blast! I received alot of compliments and praising from my friends and teacher. Most importantly, i heard PZ telling me that BT, my ex-form teacher, sent a msg to her, saying
"Did you tape down the music? ...I was touched to see 2 of my former students who had only learnt an instrument for 6 weeks and perform that well..." This compliment almost made me cry. I was close to tears.
I heard the word
"ENCORE! ENCORE!" throughout LT5. I heard thunderous clapping. We played a short excerpt of Pasadena-our fav piece again. It was a real, cool blast! We ended off with a perfect key. Although some of us did played wrong notes or made squeaky sounds includ. me, the experience was certainly worthwhile. After the performance, I went to look for my family. My whole family, knowing my results, were glad for me. My younger bro hugged me so tightly that i couldn't breathe. They said the performance was really good. I was once again, overjoyed! They asked me out for dinner, but I decided to go out with my band members instead since i don't think i'm meeting them that often now.
We packed up, took photos, had debriefs, gave
ballooney flowers, laughed...everything. We even formed a sorta 'choir-band' during these 6 weeks. We received compliments from the conductor, the band teachers and our seniors throughout these 6 weeks. These were the encouragement and support that pushed me to practice hard and not let myself down. Then, we left for heartland mall's burger king to eat supper. While leaving, we were talking crap. My sectional leader, pz and me watched the dim stars together. We saw the 'Orion'. It was exceptionally beautiful that night. It was a superb day.
I met a group of my friends at BK, includ my male buddy, RICKY BOON. hahaha! He's a great friend, a real good friend. I then left BK at 11+pm. It was a real great day...Two thumbs up! I reflected alot. Memories came rushing through me. Then...sms-ing...and...ZzZzZzZzZ...
*Continue...*
posted @ 7:31 AM
[STUDIES]
Argh, studies as usual, was boring. I merely passed my economics test. And for the 1st test of C Maths, i scored 27/30. I seem not to be balancing my studies with my leisure time. During this period of time, I was struggling among Hi-5 Camp X meetings, LOADS of band practices for the upcoming Bb concert on 27th feb and my studies. I was totally burned out. Studying is part and parcel of life. It seems so interesting and fascinating, yet so boring and dull. Isn't it? I skipped school for about a total of 4 days in these 2 mths. Due to reasons such as I just don't feel like going to school, woke up late...And I just told my parents the truth why i'm not going to sch on tt day. They regard attending school as a very important priority. That's why sometimes I'm so afraid to just tell them that I skipped school. Nevertheless, I told them. Ok. I told them. I talked to my parents bout it and they accept my explaination. I explained that I'm so burned out sometimes that I woke up late. Bla bla bla...
As i've said, STUDIES is a boring subject. Let's skip it, huh? yea...hahaha!
[THE DAY BEFORE THE RELEASE OF 'O' LEVEL RESULTS]
I couldn't eat for the whole day. These 3 mths, I've been having all sorts of dreams and nightmares. I prayed alot. I prayed to God even though I'm a free thinker. I prayed so hard that I had no mood to even listen to music or even play the piano. Those two were my favourites according to my leisure time. I was panicking. The 'what-ifs' came into my mind. What if I failed my EL?
*TOUCH WOOD* What if I dun get my desired results (although i dun have one)? What if my family weren't satisfied with my results? What if I can't perform well for my band concert knowing that my results are poor? All these minor little flashes came across my mind. I was freaked out. Panicked. Afraid of facing the reality for this moment. I couldn't get to sleep. It was a day of torture for me.
[RELEASE OF 'O' LEVEL RESULTS]
A torturous day yesterday has been brought on today. It was the climax of my 'concentration camp'. I forcefully drank a cup of warm milo down my throat at 11+am. I called up my friend, Clara, to talk to her to calm both of us down. We agreed on a deal. If I get below 18pts for L1R5, i'll let her slap me. If she gets below 15, I'll slap her. That was a cranky deal. But it'll at least let us calm down. Following that, I decided to meet Ricky for lunch at 1pm. It was for LUNCH. But i didn't manage to eat. I simply had no appetite. I had 2 major events to worry today. The release of 'O' level results which concerns my future. The other which is my sch's band concert for that evening. I met Ricky at Boon Keng Mrt control station. Janice, KG and SL appeared too. hahaha! But, i was too afraid to go to sch then. So, i went out with Ricky for a walk while the 3 of them head to sch's library.
At 2pm sharp, we headed to sch. My feet got heavier each step I'm nearer to BSS. I had never felt such a pressure before. Every min, I asked Ric to slow down his walking pace. I'm just too afraid. "I am so near my results, yet so far." That was a good saying by Ric.
When I entered my former Bendemeer Secondary School, I saw familiar faces. My juniors, my teachers, my peers...all wishing me good luck. The more they wished me, the more afraid i was. I entered the hall. My heartbeat for the day was going unusually fast. Before reaching school, I cried silently at home twice. I'm just so afraid to look at my results, fearing that I might just collapse in the multi-purpose school hall. I had friends calling me up, sms-ing me to wish me luck. My marks was fixed. My heart wasn't. It was beating extremely fast. I used to watch my seniors getting the results in the past. Now, it was my turn. There was the extreme tension. Sooner or later, I knew i had to get back my results. My SRJC's band sectional leader (clarinet section), YiQin, called me up straight after his lessons which was his lunch time to find out how i'm doing. He tried to calm me down. He consoled me. He was just there for me. He's a real great guy. A true friend indeed.
The next moment, it was my turn to collect my results according to my class's register number. I walked up, heading to my ex-form teacher, legs feeling weak. I sat down. My hands numbed. I totally stopped breathing for a moment. I told him I'm very afraid of facing my results. Then, he gave me two choices. 1) He'll read the grades out for me. 2) He'll give me the reply slip. I chose the 2nd option. The 1st one could just have given me a heart attack. Then, I flipped my results slip. EL-B3. I cried for joy. I always got C for EL. and now, a high B. When I looked at my Com Hum grade, A1-I was shocked.
I screamed at my ex-form teacher. He laughed. I saw the true laughter from his face. I saw the expression that he was glad and satisfied for me. I saw that he was happy for me even though he taught me Chemistry and i made a freaky C5 out of it. He was a great teacher even though he was not close to me and even though some of my classmates didn't like him. My mind was a blank. I wanted to count my LIR5. But I took about 3 min to count it. My teacher patiently waited. 14! I screamed once again! I was sooo delighted!!! I shook his hand with my warmest heartfelt thanks. He smiled. I felt like crying at that moment.
Next, i went
screaming at the top of my voice at my Com Hum teacher, Mr Malcolm Tan, who taught me History and Social Studies. I thanked him thrice for believing that I can get an A1. That he put through all his effort just to interest us in history which i thought was a boring subject. I thank him for the songs that he wrote for the graduating classes. His emails. His wishes for me. His teachings. Everything. He shook my hand too. And I really really do felt like crying at that time. After that, I searched for Mr Kelvin Yap, my EL teacher, who is recently teaching in RI now. I thanked him for having his patience to teach me EL. How to answer my qns to comprehension, how to improve my summary, how to avoid unnecessary statements, how to improve my standard of el...He was one of the best teachers i can ever have when my class felt pressurized, when our class got scolded. He was the one who lifted the hearts of 4E1. He was the one who cared to share our burdens, who has been there whenever we have problems regarding studies or out of that. He was one of the teachers who motivated me and pushed me up to my limits. Thank you, Mr Yap.
Then, I went back to thank Mr Benedict Tan, my ex-form teacher again. I told him my LIR5 score-14. It improved with a score of 6 when i got 20 for my prelims. I was simply overjoyed. He was surprised too. Bet he forgotten my results. hahaha! He shook my hand non-stop...I was so happy that I felt like flying in the air. I could only jump. And i jumped non-stop with laughter. With pure laughter. I felt a sigh of relief. I breathed deeply. BSS is a school that I have not regretted choosing although some said bad comments bout it. 4E1 was definitely a class full of laughter and sorrows. It was those days when we shared, cared, love...
In that hall, the top 3 scorers for 4E were from my class. The 2nd was so happy that she cried. She's fiona. And she's really humble. My pri sch mate too. Real good. 1st and 3rd was Elamaran and Belinda respectively. As i expected. They were those good bunch of ppl who have high grades all over their results slips.
In that hall, I saw JLo crying. I saw him breaking down as he couldn't get his desired results. Before he got his results, I was there to calm him down, making sure that he will do better than me. He qualified for JC. But not his desired JC. I sms-ed him at night. And he felt better.
In that hall, I saw Clara crying before she gets her results. She cried because she was too afraid to know her results. She got 11 pts. I got 14. She slapped me, and i slapped her. That's our deal if you read the above excerpt. It was a moment of satisfaction. That we laughed together. That we did funny stuff, funny deal on the release of results.
My juniors went around asking me my results and i gladly told them my results. I was proud of my results for this moment even though 14 may not seem to be a good pointer to some of the ppl out there. Friends from all over singapore, family members started calling me. I was bombarded with "Hey! How's your results?" My younger bro was so worried that he called about 5 times.
That freako. haha...Some of them receive lower pts, some the opp. But, it doesn't matter. So long as I've done my best, I'm satisfied.
Phew! Today was a moment of deciding my future. And I'm glad that I had alot more options to choose rather than the 1st 3 mths. I was satisfied.
*Continue...*
posted @ 4:00 AM
[CLASS OUTING]
We met in the evening at Somerset Mrt station. Only 8 came. But it was all right. I felt a sense of satisfaction that those who were not here actually can't come due to some important reasons. 2 guys go M.I.A. Everything was held last min. Kinda informal and the night was a rush...But, it was a good class outing manz! We took photos...It was disgusting! haha! And we watched NC-16 movie 'Cold mountain'.
I just realised at that moment that once i entered my JC life, I've been watching R(A) films. Lit films, movies with friends...The good side so-to-say is to appreciate art and the meaning of those disgusting scenes. The bad side...to try hard to erase those disgusting scenes off your innocent young mind.
We caught the last mrt train at 12.04 am. Hey! I remembered tt! hahaha! Yea, tt's the exact timing. We ran and ran...in 30 secs...and it was actually the other platform that we aren't suppose to tk. haha! So we got on to the correct train after 4 min when the train arrived. Felt really exhausted and tired. All in a NIGHT of rushing state.
However, the
experience of having a class outing with frens whom you've barely known for 2 mths was superb. It was really wonderful. After this day goes on with COLLEGE ROAD RACE!
[COLLEGE ROAD RACE]
I only had 5hrs of sleep. It started off with the hot blazing sun shone right upon me. I felt so tired. So burned out. After the road race, I still had band practice. I went off carrying my clarinet case like some freak. No one would bring an instrument for road race. And the rest of the band members actually 'safeguard' their instruments in the music room.
The race then started off with j1 and j2 gals first. In the beginning, it was so crowded that i could hardly run the pace that i usually do. Then, i started overtaking some of the gals by running on the grass and hard soil. The race was held along my sch district.
I ran and ran...I gasped for my breath all the way. I cheered my friends on while they were running in front of me. I bypassed some of them. Then, I ran with all might to the finishing line. I was 43th in position among all j1 and j2 gals, which adds to a total about 400 girls.
I came out top ten for my house, Cetus. I was satisfied as I was really dead tired at that time. I felt like sleeping on the spot.
Here, I would like to thank Jia Wen, my SRJC 041A02 friend, who have always motivated me the whole of 3.7km when doing PE. She was the one who pressed me on, who gasped for breath while running just to say "Come on, we can do it! Keep running, Chong Ying!" She was the one who encouraged me. She is a great runner. And I felt really elated to have such a brilliant friend. She was not present during the College Road Race as she was sick during those few days.
I depended on myself to run non-stop for 3.7km. Thank you, Jia Wen! Thanks for all your breathless words of encouragement. It was a really great day. The trophy that i got was for my house and Jia Wen. Only for them.
*Continue...*
posted @ 3:25 AM
Hey hey hey! I've not been writing my blog for 1 month! hahahaha! A whole lot of things have been happening. And i'm gonna write everything tt happened in my sch, my life etc in a few headlines? Coz I think it'll be rather long...hahaha! Enjoy reading!
[VALENTINE'S DAY]
Ok. Before Vday, 2 guys from my OG actually asked me out. I mean, you know it la, they like me. I'm not trying to brag bout this. I only, ONLY treat them as gd buddies. So, of course, I rejected them.
The day before Valentine's Day, SRJC sorta celebrate this 'festive' occasion. In our canteen, we had lotsa roses for collection, heart-shaped lollipops, cards, ice-cream, bears etc. Everyone in SRJC at least had a gift. Me? I got 5 roses, one from my dear 'kor'-siwei, a marist, the other is from my band major, cheh yong, whom i suspect he likes PZ, wadeva...the 3rd from Merjahn, my gd buddy from OG, 4th from Alex-my OG fren and ex-track & field fren and lastly, one from my 'aunt'-Eileen. I also received candies and chocolates from my two 'sistas'-Cindy and Angela. PZ and me wanted to buy a rose for each other, but couldn't find any florist shop nor does our sch sells them since we had to book our flowerd beforehand. So, we just wished a simple Vday to each other.
It was a really wonderful experience to have a celebration of Vday in SRJC, where one can show our thanks to our loved ones. I had a great time in school today. Everyone had their smiles on them while getting their gifts. It was simple yet sweet. It was a real sweet day.
I saw my parents in school. They asked me out for lunch. I was busy preparing for econs debate later on so I told them I could't make it. I gave each of them a hug and told them I love them. 'Sweet' was the word to describe the day.
After school, I went for hi-5 Camp X meeting. Then, Hui Luan gave me a silver heart-shaped bookmark that she made herself. Manz...I love her. She's my long-lost friend when we were in pri sch and then in sec sch, we lost contact for a total of 4 yrs. And, fate has indeed brought us together when we came for hi-5 selection camp. She's just so sweet. So caring, so helpful...everything. I reached hm after the meeting at 11+pm. I was bushed. I had a real happy time today.
Vday was special to me this yr as I had not celebrate Vday of any way like that before with my loved ones.
[VALENTINE'S DAY]
Happy Vday to everyone! I had band practice today. I had to go for it. I know it. I wanted to do well for my upcoming performance. At first, Band didn't really gave me a gd impression because I didn't find any close friend there except PZ but she found a close buddy, the band major, Cheh Yong. So I just left her alone.
Kerui, my long-lost fren too, from my pri sch, just like Hui Luan. Fate then brought me and Kerui together in SRJC. The 1st time when I saw him was through PZ at a bus stop opp SRJC. I asked him, "Are you Kerui?" with lots of suspicion. He said yes. Manz! I was darn happy that I found my long-lost fren. So, to continue, Band improved my impressions towards it. And till today, I love band. My section was extreme sporting.
Initially, I found clarinet very challenging and found it quite tough to blow. For now, I'm picking it up. And i love the unity in Band. Everytime without fail after band practice, a group of band members will go to heartland mall for dinner, lunch wadsoeva.
And so, after the band practice today, PZ went out wif her bf. Thus, I went out with the bachelors and bachelorettes as I'm one of them too. My day was free. As usual, we went to heartland mall to eat. We played some 'bang bang' game, which until today, i haven't figured out! I m so pissed off with this game and I'm gonna kill Kerui, Zhen Cong and Zhen Qiang for this! haha! Dinner was quite all right then.
While walking the pathway to take mrt train with Kerui, we caught my sectional leader, Yi Qin and a gal together. Most prob she's a j1. I dunno. Yi Qin said she's one yr younger than mi. From then on, I kept teasing Yi Qin bout this matter. Haha! They look so pai seh when we passed them and said the usual "orh...orh...woooo..." hahahaha! Yi Qin clarified that they two are not steads and simply went out for dinner. I vividly remembered I saw him carrying a plastic bag that consists of a heart-shaped balloon. hahaha! Caught him! Kerui and I kept teasing him manz...darn pai seh...poor pathetic Yi Qin. Well, his name sounds like some gal's name. But, at least it's better than someone from CJC named Chong Ying, after ME, who is a male! Ying! How can that be?! nvm...
Today was quite a simple day with well wishes when we were abandoned by the couples. hahaha! But we shared laughters today. It was cool. I saw Cheh Yong thinking deeply in BK. I once again, suspect that he misses PZ, but he don't wanna tell me anything. It's all right. I don't feel that close to him la...So it's all right if he ain't gonna tell me any problem.
Today was a day of teasing, loving and appreciating our loved ones.
posted @ 1:21 AM
Phew. Sure is going to be tough.
FIRST UP...
THE BADS:
Im hot-headed. Very easily hot-tempered. BAD BAD BAD.
Im as stubborn as a mule.
I dislike tummy. u know? fats? tummy? ugh.
I particularly moan and groan and roar and scream at ppl who lie to me.
I got a weak heart.
I think i got high blood pressure. Did I mention I get stressed up over the slightest stuff?
OH OH OH. I procrastinate ppl who don't respect me. U really need to take a good look at yourself.
My eyes can pop out. BEWARE.
I think I love bitching.
I eat irregularly. Tat explains me not growing up.
Oh yes. One more. I wake up when the sun sets. COOL HOR.
NOW FOR THE GOODS! YIPPEE!
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I love socialising. alot alot!
I want to become a model of my own world. YAYA. DREAM ON.
I love those who love me. Embrace, cherish and all nicey stuff! *HUGSSSS*
Ah. Yes. I love colouring my toe nails, buying chunky earrings & being pretty though i dun think im worth it.
I LOVE PARADOXES OF LIFE. I LURVE, LURRRVEEEE, LURRRRRRRVVVVEEEEEEEE THEM.
FOR GDNESS SAKE, DUN CLASSIFY ME AS 'CY LOVES TO BE A PRINCESS!' YUCKS. MY TERM: RAGDOLL. ugly and tattered. damn cool.
I can go on forever. I'll just stop here. Know more bout me thru my entries! *wriggles my nose*