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My Reflections
Today, I had band. Initially, I lost contact of my correct tuning of clarinet. Then, the band conductor who is a humorous guy gave us encouragement today. Band is really good. I'm improving and catching up with my fingerings of the pieces that i'm playing on
27th of feb. Sch band is holding a concert called 'Concert in B-flat' and it's in the largest theatre of my
sch-LT5. After band, I went out wif Pei Zhen and Cheh Yong-president of chairman (man...he's quite a crappy guy la...haha) to Bras Basah to search for materials on our banner.
I think I was quite quiet today. Not the usual me who talks loads of crap. I did reflection today. Memory lane is the phrase of my day. I reflected on my sec sch life and what kind of environment am i in now etc. I questioned myself whether I am happy the way I am now. Other than hw, of coz i am glad to say that the seniors, teachers, lecturers and new-found friends in
SRJC brought spices to my life. However, I did questioned myself again to this question. This time, I answered only to a certain extent. I have definitely not made a very close friend. The feeling is just not there and i am unable to make people see that i am there. I am neither outstanding nor VERY important to any friend's life. I tried to make friends. I did mix well with them but in the basis of only fun when we are together. We don't really understand each other's problems. I don't have a fixed friend.
I did found myself 3 sis and 2 bros. I did know that someone likes me. But, the feeling is not there. It is just not there. We go to our own small groups individually. Almost everyone is talking about vday's celebration. Some don't have a partner. Some have. And they go around talking bout vday stuff. I m just so influenced in this topic when i come here.
I usually don't pay any attention to any handsome punks or pretty babes in my sec sch. Yet, when I came to SRJC, i was influenced and go around saying whether this guy is handsome or tt gal over there is pretty bla bla bla...I don't want to be affect by this kind of thing. I want to be myself. I like the way in SRJC, yet not to the extent that I've found a fixed friend, a gd listening ear and one who gives me advices, support and encouragement. I need someone who volunteers to be my pillar of support, not 24/7, but most of the times.
Plus, I'm recovering from my wound made by so-and-so. He taught me a lesson not to fall in love with a guy so deeply. I'm never gonna fall in love with him again. I believe I'm spending vday alone in yr 2004.
For now, I think i'm a follower of a fren, not an individual. I want to be an individual of my own. I want to be unique. I dare to be different. I want to stand up from the rest in a positive way. I want to be outstanding. I want to have self-improvement. I will. And I shall.
"I want to be all I can. I want to be who I am."
posted @ 2:12 PM
Phew. Sure is going to be tough.
FIRST UP...
THE BADS:
Im hot-headed. Very easily hot-tempered. BAD BAD BAD.
Im as stubborn as a mule.
I dislike tummy. u know? fats? tummy? ugh.
I particularly moan and groan and roar and scream at ppl who lie to me.
I got a weak heart.
I think i got high blood pressure. Did I mention I get stressed up over the slightest stuff?
OH OH OH. I procrastinate ppl who don't respect me. U really need to take a good look at yourself.
My eyes can pop out. BEWARE.
I think I love bitching.
I eat irregularly. Tat explains me not growing up.
Oh yes. One more. I wake up when the sun sets. COOL HOR.
NOW FOR THE GOODS! YIPPEE!
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I love socialising. alot alot!
I want to become a model of my own world. YAYA. DREAM ON.
I love those who love me. Embrace, cherish and all nicey stuff! *HUGSSSS*
Ah. Yes. I love colouring my toe nails, buying chunky earrings & being pretty though i dun think im worth it.
I LOVE PARADOXES OF LIFE. I LURVE, LURRRVEEEE, LURRRRRRRVVVVEEEEEEEE THEM.
FOR GDNESS SAKE, DUN CLASSIFY ME AS 'CY LOVES TO BE A PRINCESS!' YUCKS. MY TERM: RAGDOLL. ugly and tattered. damn cool.
I can go on forever. I'll just stop here. Know more bout me thru my entries! *wriggles my nose*
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