Don't call me A (eh!) Call me C, C.Y.
Don't really have any comments for today.
Just a number of 'heart attacks'. Morale's low.
Hmm. He didn't say anything. Just continued our converse thru sms. At least he didn't avoid me. I'm glad. Awfully glad.
Expect the Unexpected. Believe the impossible.
I do, cherish you.
posted @ 7:15 AM
REVEALED
REVEALED TO HIM. DON'T KNOW WHAT'S THE OUTCOME. SCARED.
posted @ 12:04 PM
Nothing at all.
FATE CHANGES EVERYTHING OR EVERYTHING CHANGES FATE?
pH7 goes on.
Let HIM be part of my PERFECTION.
posted @ 12:55 PM
Feeling dead. Moody.
Just woke up from my sleep. Log on to net. Tudi was frantically asking for my help. He got stuck. The girl he likes asked him for his blog add. And tudi wrote bout her? and didn't want to let her know. So, though I may seem a little blur, I tried to give my opinions and his choices to choose from if I were him. Very sleepy. Sluggish.
I don't want to talk bout studies today. Everybody is getting high marks. And they are not satisfied. I'm sad that they don't understand my feelings. And some even said that "Aiya...not gd enough la. But compared to the worse ppl, I think I'm ok lo." Do they think that they are quite inhumane of ppl's feelings??? hello??? Shuddup. You passed and you are unhappy. What more do you want? Stop flaunting ur gd marks in front of those weaker peeps. They ain't able to take it. Like me.
I met him on msn today. I somehow think that these few days he's either really avoiding me or he's very busy. Log on to the net. It's like a probability of 1 out of 1 000 000 that I get to find him on the net. I totally rely on fate. When I find him, he says he's bz, has to go etc. What can I do??? I am here struggling to keep my secret. I will somehow explode for sure. I really admire those ppl who have a crush for a very long time. I can get very easily fed up and drop to a low confidence. Ppl keep trying to dig out the truth from me. I mean, so wad if you know the truth? He doesn't even like me. Can I tell those ppl, and make sure that he likes me? I dun think so. Sometimes, I think it'll even be worse. Rumours goes on. I don't like that. Esp. when I have a crush. This feeling is so terrible. I can only confide to my friend. But does it still help? It only helps for short term. Then, the low-confidence-like feeling cums back. Very terrible. What to do??? I know, I ought to know that he will definitely not like me (Dun ask how I know, I just know). But I can't forget him.
Darn...Tudi is gonna write his last entry today. Either he's feeling lazy, or he wants to end his problem by not lying to the gal he likes anymore. That's why he wanted to stop writing his blog. Haiz...why are there so many problems again? I very tired leh.
Suddenly I feeling moody. So many problems and that talkative dad of mine is nagging bout my shoes. Oh, CAN YOU JUST GIMME A BREAK???!!!
Tears gonna fall. Gotta go back to my room. The place where I can let go of my feelings.
posted @ 10:52 AM
mY LifE. My turning point in life. (">)
I'd give myself a pat on my back for scoring a remarkable A2 in Chinese today. So happy! a 2 in my pocket...yea...Somehow, JLO seems so sian leh. He didn't talk to me in class. Ok la, but very seldom. Neither did he call mi. I said "shuddup" to him today during recess. Coz I failed my Paper 2 (Lucky I passed overall. Phew!), that's why I didn't have the mood. My apologies! I'm really sorry.
I gonna receive my Eng paper 2 tml. The 1st part of my doomsday. Ok. Nvm. It's ok. At least I tried my best. God must bless me. And him. Receiving alot of 'heart attacks' lately. Muz cool down...Who1...Xi1...Who1...Xi1...haha!
Didn't see him today. Haiz. It's always this case. I'm getting lifeless. Tudi, I'm glad for ya. SL, yao jia you! Very sad leh. It's raining non-stop today. Weather's cold. And thunder. When there's thunder, I think of 4 ppl. 1st, MJ coz she has the same phobia as me. 2nd, Tudi. His curse. I hate that. 3rd, JLO, coz i told him before. I dunno why I told sooo many ppl but I remembered him when there's thunder. Lastly, it's him. I told him before. And he thinks thunder is fine. I wonder how ppl's heartbeat didn't fly out. Mine did. For uncountable times. Ok. You may say i'm a scaredy. But it's really scary!!!
Erm, just some personal info to bring my bloggy more lively today. What do I like? Erm, let's see...I like playing piano (all kinds of genre), watching TV (esp. F.R.I.E.N.D.S), chat (I love chatting), sleep (of coz...I'm having panda eyes these few weeks), watching lovely scenery, drawing etc. I DO NOT like Science (coz that's my worst sub in my life, I think.) I love music lessons and art lessons. That's why I always ponder that I've wasted my time during my Sec 3-4 years. Some of my classmates are so enthu' in these subjects. And I always tk out time in class to draw (Sometimes la, to prevent myself from falling asleep). And sing songs or looking at piano pieces to figure out the melody. I'd like to associate myself with this for my job, in my life. If you ever ask me to go to Science stream or tk up any, i mean ANY Science course, I'll drop dead. That's why I often say I like my class not because of the subjects (TRIPLE SCIENCES! SIAO!), it's because of my classmates and teachers. So united. A rare class indeed. (haha! The ratio of gals:bois =3:1) haha! I believe it's the commitment to the class that counts, that each and every classmate builds an extremely strong bond among each other. I love this class! Maybe it's also part of my creations of 'art pieces' for my class-Tees that I feel so belonged in e1.
Ok. I think that's enough bout my class stuff. Hmmz...Hope he knows how I feel for him one day. And really hopes that he give me a positive answer. God bless him. And those ppl who have crush out there. I somehow understand these feelings where you sometimes do not have courage to tell the crush the truth. Some have 100% confidence, some don't. The rest have 0%. I'm one of those in the 0% group. But fret not. Coz *life is beautiful* (Copyright from LSL).
posted @ 10:12 AM
Prelims-E.N.D.
Guess wad? This morning, I saw him yawning. Haha! Ok. TL and I were arguing about morning greetings (bo liao). But I took notice of him. haha! SL asked whether I saw him today. Yesh...gd. gd. gd. (^_____^lll)
AM was a hell lot of me today. I was soo tired. And I kept yawning. And Mrs Loh walked past me while I was YAWNING. haha! Guessed she saw me. haha! AM was terrible. I almost fell into dreamland while doing the paper. And sorta shaking my head at the same time (coz dunno how to do ma...haiz.) Chem MCQ was ok la. Not as bad as last time when I used to fail my MCQs! haha! Not too bad. Not too gd.
Hmm. Heard from PZ that tml, my class is gonna get back phy paper. Chum! I dun think I've did that well for my prelims. LIR5 might even get over 20. Chum...realli chum. Can blame myself too. For not putting enough effort. And yawning all the way. I think my hope of going into 3 mth JC course is dashed. Chum.
PZ and I went to toa payoh and to Plaza Sing. today. So tired, and I find it a miracle that I went. Really tired. We shared money to buy a piano instrumental bk. For the pieces of Kevin Kern. His songs were cool. Wahaha...so glad!!! I'm back hm. Writing today's blog. Sooo darn lifeless.
Asked MJ to read my blog. She said, "er...so sad..." Sad? ok la. Sad is sad. But also includ. some happy stuff right? *life is beautiful*...yesh...SL, I remembered that. hehe! (><")
Everyday wishing that he can cum online. Oh ya, he sent me some fwd emails. Most of them were gd and comical. Except for one. The web on how to calculate your death date and how you die. It's horrific. A blardee monster (dressed by a human with tickling blood) pops up with an eerie music. Totally disgusting. I hate these kind of fwd mails. Darn terrible. I hope he will stop sending these kind of scary mails to me. Most of them were gd. Very gd.
Missed him. Erm, sms-ing him. Chatting on msn with him. God bless him. And all my friends, families, relatives, teachers, juniors, seniors etc.
Hmmz. Gonna have a real gd time to slp tonight. Definitely after watching my fav. TV programmes. Adios!
posted @ 7:43 AM
S.T.O.I.C.
I did some bo liao quizzes today. These were from dear benedict in hi-5. Erm, maybe after seeing this, can get to know more about me? hope so...>
I didn't see him today. I think he was absent. Told SL. So lifeless. SL consoled me not to worry too much and concentrate on my paper. I think I didn't do that well for lit today. Waiting. Seconds passed by.>
I am really having the stoic expression today. These days, I didn't eat much. Keep drinking lots of water. Don't know why. Went to www.turnleftturnright.com today. Out of 'sian-ness'. It was gd. On the speakers. I love the song.>
SL, like I said, I don't think I will have the chance already. How? I didn't get to see him today. He's not lined up in his class during morning assembly. Or I didn't get to spot him? Is he sick?>
Tml, my 'little freedom' is here. My prelims will end tml at 12pm. So happy! But collecting my results, you will see what I have got...haha! Nvm. So long as I try my best is good enough. Be content. SL, I know you wanna say "Life is beautiful" and "Tsuyoshi is da best"...Er hem, forget it hor? haha!
Tudi seems weird these days. Chat with him in msn seems like talking to the wall. Didn't see tudi these few days too. What happened? He didn't even manage to write his blog. You ok?
Still, I think I'm mad. Sometimes, I think of him. Sometimes, I don't. When I'm alone, and moreover studying, he's my distraction. But, daydreaming has its advantages. Hope he cums online or sms me. Bless me!
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posted @ 2:34 AM
I wonder what he is thinking...
Heya...EM was fine. Alot better than Paper 1. Guess I didn't really put in alot better for today's paper coz my mind was filled with him. I managed to see him today. I'm glad. Really glad. My satisfaction reached its peak.
He sent me a fwd sms last night. It was about friendship. But, I started to worry, worrying that he might know it or wants us to remain as friends only. I'm scared. Or is it a normal fwd sms?
Ppl say the worst in loving someone is to know that the one you love likes another. Seeing him/her happy is only what you can do silently. Other than that, it's so difficult to express your feelings. I often advice my friends to pluck up their courage and tell the boy/girl that he/she likes him/her. Now, I myself, finds it so difficult.
Nevertheless, I still wish to encourage all friends out there to express your feelings to your loved ones. Heard of a saying or seen in a fwd mail, that if you don't have the courage to tell the person that you like him, and that he likes you and is afraid to tell you too, you two will never know that the opposite party likes each other. It will do harm. Yet, the fear of rejecting is also an important factor. That's the case for me. I'm in a dilemma.
He's not online today. Somehow, I think that my blog is writing all about him. I'll just include some info of myself today. I would like to listen to music, those sentimental and meaningful songs when I'm down. And I would cry myself to bed. Maybe call a friend or two to confide in them. When I'm crying, although when friends come to console me, I will somehow cry even more. But, dun walk away. Coz I wish someone will hug me. That's the best comfort. (Of coz I dun mean that I'm pervertic or you guys should hug me la...but a hug is really the best when your feelings are held at concerned.) Therefore, if i cry even louder, don't worry, coz I'm happy that someone is there to console me.
I think that's all for my personal info regarding 'my crying times'. Haha! weird stuff and theory.
I wish he cums online again. Or am i too late? (I'm equivocating. ok. It means double meaning.) Late in the sense that I won't be able to capture his heart. And that he already went offline.
I'm having different thoughts daily. Really hope to see him each and everyday. And you guys too! Coz you brighten my life! ^_____^
posted @ 6:15 AM
Feeling Good! ^_____^
HAHA! My buddy also knows my secret about who I like...haha! Feeling so pai seh...I also trust that she won't say out. But I'm not as crazy as SL who goes around saying "oh...how???!!!" haha...relax...I promise I won't say out (*wink *wink).
Hmmmz...guess wad? He was online last night, or rather morning, at 1+am. I chatted wif him till 2+...guess he's tired. Although he didn't bid me gdbye, but it's all right. I still didn't have the courage to tell him. But, I asked him a silly qns whether he likes someone...he said 'no'. Am i glad! haha! But that doesn't mean that he'll like me. haiz...
Nvm. At least I'm not that moody now. I slept at 3am last night (or morning). hmmz...nice slp. But i woke up hearing thunders again...haha! R the thunders out to defy me?
Hmmz. I'm feeling better. Thanks to SL for consoling me. Thanks to tudi although his Auto Message keeps saying that he's not there. You guys really did a great job in consoling me! Many thanks! I've regain slightly a little confidence.
But, maybe he doesn't like me. Hmmz...life's full of oxymorons. But, like SL said, life is beautiful! But, is life beautiful in S'pore? haha!
This is a great fwd mail from dear Jun Long. I love this mail. And I'm dedicating to my loved ones out there:
If one day you feel like crying...call me. I don't promise I will make you laugh, But I can cry with you.
If one day you want to run away...Don't be afraid to call me. I don't promise to ask you to stay, But I can run with you.
If one day you don't want to listen to anybody, call me...I promise to be very quiet.
But, if one day you call and there is no answer...
Come fast to see me, Perhaps I need you.
A million thanks to JLO for sending me this mail. It realli cheers up my mood. Feel good today. Have a great Sunday out there, peeps! Ciao!
posted @ 4:15 AM
Sad. Bad.
Hi all. I read SL's blog. I agree with your sentiments totally, gal. I'm missing him too.
I don't think he will even have the thought. I don't think he will even put an effort to chat with me. Liking a stranger is bad enough. I'm really very tired of this. I feel like crying. No one understands. Everyone keep talking about him. Talking a rumour about him and me. I told you: "It's not true! Don't always talk about me and that guy! He don't know anything at all. He doesn't even know i like him! Stop saying about me and him!" Do you guys out there who 'jack' me and him are a little unsure of what is going on? Pls don't say it again. I'm really feeling disturbed enough.
Today is another rainy day. I missed him. For 72 hrs. But I don't think that the feeling is right. I know that he doesn't even like me, yet I still wished to see him. How depressed can the feeling be...
I'm want to apologise to Ricky for not really chatting with him today in msn. I'm feeling moody. I chatted with the guy in msn today. It was as if two hi-bye frens were talking. I'm already surpressing my feelings. I can't take it. I wanna cry out.
Felt very lifeless today. No mood to eat. No mood for revision (maybe at night I'll force myself). No mood to watch tv. No mood to play piano. No mood to chat. No mood to sms. The only thing I felt ok was listening to music. Meaningful music and reading meaningful fwd mails. The one Ricky sent me just now was gd. Really gd. Thanks.
I think, in life, man's bad points is about feeling jealous and feeling moody. I think it's a disastrous when you like someone so badly and the someone don't like you.
This msg to you for today:
The greatest pain in life
is not to die, but to be ignored.
To lose the person you love so
much to another who doesn't care at all.
To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.
When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.
To have people think that you don't care.
The greatest pain in life,
is not to die,
but to be forgotten.
To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.
To never get a call from a friend,
just saying "hi".
When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.
For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.
When it seems like the only person who cares about you,
is you.
Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?
Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind
to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored...
forgotten...
as you have done to others.
Please show someone you care for them today. It takes so little of your time to smile, give a hug, a word of encouragement or just to say "I care".
I've learnt that love might not be as great that of a word for me. Maybe I shouldn't be thinking of him. I'm tired. Bye.
posted @ 5:25 AM
It's so tiring to have a crush...
Haiz. I didn't see him today, once again. I have not seen him for two days. So sad.
Today, I went out with Ricky and MJ even though I was dead tired. I onli slept for 4hrs last night. Later, I still have to go to the airport. My dad's coming back! hurray...
My younger bro went camping from today-sunday. I'm wondering, he should be having his final exams soon and he still has the nerve to go to camping. haha! I'm the same as him...always go out even during exam periods. Today, when i came back hm, elder bro was nagging non-stop. again! He was grumbling, "Why do you keep going to internet? Don't you have to study? Why you everytime go out?" bleah...He doesn't even know how many hrs i spent studying and all he does is to change hp and hp (He thinks that's business). He does all those trading and stuff. He has nothing better to do, aren't he? And he has the cheek to say me...It's always this case. He always win. I felt like I'm Kingshaw! Will it results in my 'ultimate death'? haha! Can't I just have some peace? Can't I just relax for a day? hmmmz...naggy fella...
Well, I can't care about him. He's just a 'futile obstacle'. Sometimes, I feel I'm too much. All those rebutting, and the stubbornness in me...haha! Maybe that's the bad side of me.
Haiz. Two days! 48hrs! 2880min! 172800secs! Miserable hrs...I missed the chance to chat with him today! All becoz of me going out! But, he may not go online. Haiz...Suggestions? Wad should I do? I'm so tired. It's so hard to like someone and have someone as a crush. And i wish that Ricky will stop saying the person...it can get irritating at times.
Haiz...should I tell him or should I not? Should I reveal that I like him? What if the friendship spoils? I'd rather not spell it out if this is the case.
Jay Chow's songs rule! Very meaningful. Now I understand why YZ idols him so much. He has a deeper meaning in his songs rather than Westlife. Westlife is sentimental. Jay Chow's songs stick to reality and the feelings involved.
I'm feeling moody. I hope I can talk to him tml. But I dun have his contact no. And i'm not even close to him. Haiz...
gtg. bless him and all.
posted @ 11:48 AM
D.O.W.N.
I didn't see him today. Maybe I was too concentrated in my revision today. Hmmz...no reply. He didn't reply me. Am I asking him alot of questions? bleah...('_______'lll)
Today, I had Chinese and Chem. I'm finish and done with chinese. Alas! Phew! Chem oh chem...that darn tudi! He cursed for today's heavy rain and it came true. My hand was numbed. I was too cold. I'm afraid of thunders. My heart was beating erratically against my rib cage. Every minute the thunder came, my heart missed a beat. That's in the 1hr45min paper. haiz.
Why JLO today so sian? He was so quiet. Aiyo...wad happened? Too tired? Or too stressed up?
SL knows who TY likes now. haha! yea baby! The secret is revealed. Tudi, hao3 zhi4 wei2 zhi1 ba4! haha!
Ricky seems so pathetic. He doesn't want to tell me what happened. Hmmz...I guess I shall respect his decision.
How come I seem to observe so many ppl today? But I'm down today. Not really down. Just wishing for his reply...I've seen my mailbox today. And in hoping to make my wish come true (you know, those irritating fwd mails), I had to sent the fwd mail to 15 ppl! So sorry! I know some hate these kinda mails...
I love Jay Chow's songs now. I dunno why. Very nice. If any friends out there who has his albums, can you kindly, pls oh pls, burn it for me?
To JY: "Blessed is he whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered. Blessed is the man whose sin the Lord does not count against him and in whose spirit is no deceit. When I kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all night long. For day and night your hand was heavy upon me; my strength was sapped as in the heat of summer. Then I acknowledged my sin to you and did not cover up my iniquity. I said, 'I will confess my transgressions to the Lord' - and you forgave the guilt of my sin." (Psalm 32:1-5.)
This is for ya, JY. May the force be with you. haha! I hope you are getting better and better each day! Be strong!
Well, maybe he's avoiding me. Maybe he's not. I really don't know. Maybe he knows it. Maybe he doesn't. Maybe I've frightened him off. Maybe I've been thinking too much.
ok ok. I'll end the 'maybes' here. I gotta go. Maybe catch a short nap later(coz i've onli be slping for 4-5 hrs daily for these few days)? Take care...
posted @ 5:12 AM
Feelings
It's me again. I wanted to buy a 'Get Well Soon' card for JY today. But I found out that I have to buy 3 cards together. All the rest were cat pics. I hate cats. Others were like 'Forgive me', 'I promise I'll love you' etc. ok, ok...I don't have bf. That's why I didn't buy the cards. Physics was so-so. Can't imagine how I'm gonna survive the ordeal for this 2 months.
It's raining heavily outside. ARGH! WITH THUNDER AND LIGHTNING! It's the crystallisation of all my phobias! Ppl out there who likes the boldness of thunder, glad aren't ya? sob sob...No one to let me hug. haha! I can only hug my pillows and plunge into my bed under my blanket...
My elder bro's hamsters are making a din in the late nights. They're fine. They're cute. They're lovable. But, I wonder why on earth would my bro rear hamsters?! haha! For me, I would love to have a pal (dog). Those who never bite people. haha! I hate cats. They're too vain, too feline, so-and-so. Snow Dogs are the best...and the type of dogs start with Te sth sth...haha!
I'm thinking too much now. Don't ask me what. It's definitely not about studies and problems. It's a positive thought. I won't explain further.
I have alot of things to complete and study today. But, I don't feel stressed at all. What's up with me? haha! Finally, I wanna dedicate this little note to you guys. To the ones that I chatted with today. The ones who at least remembered me...
They say it takes
a minute to find a person,
an hour to appreciate them,
a day to love them,
but then an entire life to forget them.
I hope you care for those around you.
I hope you find the answer to all '~ships'.
I hope I were born for you, and you were born for me.
Cherish them. Love them. Trust them.
Adios!
posted @ 5:21 AM
B.L.A.N.K.
I'm sorry to what I wrote yesterday about JY. She was having severe gastric pain, not problem with her appendix. Got it wrong...argh! BT told PZ and me not to ask JY's mum about her. It'll stress her mum more. Maybe it's true. But we thought of visiting her, that's why we wanted to ask her mum how's she. God shall bless her. Make her well. Get well, JY.
EM sucks today! I screwed up my own paper! darn! Everything was in a mess. Nvm. I will try my best. Like I always said,"What's done cannot be undone. No use pondering and getting upset over it." I shall strive my very best! Yee har!
I juz love Gigi leung's voice. I dunno why. It's special. I think Sun Yan Zi tends to be too modern in her songs at times, which results in a very awkward tone. Ok. It's juz too rubato. I think so. Gigi is original. Simple and Sweet.
I'm so tired today. I dunno why. I haven studied a single chapter of Physics. oohhhhh...it's gonna be my doomsday tml...haha! Maybe I'll catch a nap? Who knows?
Don't really know what to write today. Maybe I'll just stop here. Take care, fellas!
posted @ 5:00 AM
Gratitude
Hi peeps! I'm here again...to write another diary. I read SS chpts 2, 3 and 4 in bk 3 and chpt 4 in bk 4. I guess that's all. I'll take the risk. To the extreme, I felt sooo tired that I sorta 'plunged' onto my study table! Lucky me! I slept for only 15min.
I read SL's diary today. Thanks, friend. I guess what you said made a point. I didn't know you like someone! And sacrificed so much for him yea? Don't worry. I'm sure you can touch his heart one day. I guess the primary sch's fren is See Kit...am i right? keke!
I read tu di's diary too! haha! Guess you are heading towards a very positive side of ya love life. God bless that everything will go smoothly with you and her. Also, wanna thank ya for the beast-like thingy...haha!
Guess wad?! Jie Ying didn't take her hist. prelims today. I was surprised when I saw her table was empty. I told PZ. And we called her hse no. after the paper. Her mum said it was due to her appendix which was giving her severe stomachache! If sent to hospital, she might stay there for a week and not come to take the papers. I really hope she will be fine. God will take care of her. PZ and me might visit her on friday. Rest well, gal!
I gonna watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S and 'qian nu you hun' tonight. I felt a sense of happiness when I accomplished quite a few chapters of SS. I guess everything is last min work. haha! Look on the positive side!
Yesterday, I was studying hist. so badly as I couldn't seem to memorize the chapters. I missed my dad. I cried. I wonder how's he doing in China. Wake up early, dad! And go to work! haha! 'Fuo sha hui bao you ning'! haha! You see, my parents believe in buddhism. While I, am a free thinker. I believe in everything, not nothing.
Well, I guessed that's all I have to say for tonight. My tu di is eagerly waiting to read my diary. haha!
Once again, God bless to all out there who's taking prelims. And God bless me too!
posted @ 11:11 AM
~~~It's my BIRTHDAY today!!!~~~
Hey folks! It's my BIGGY BIRTHDAY today!!!!!!!!! Shhoooo happi...yet sooo sad!!! I've grown older, have to have more responsibilities. Have to be more understanding, have to work harder...ya da ya da ya da...
Those are the "stressed" part. But, No! haha! I can have more POWER...HAHA! I can go out late at night! I can go to play billiard! I can watch NC-16 movies!!! ooohhhhh...yea!!!
Happy birthday to me~ Happy birthday to me~ Happy birthday to Chong Ying~~~ Happpiiii Birthdaaaaaaaayyyyyy toooooo meeeeeee!!!!! Yeeee Harrrrr!!!
Hey wait! What's all these for? Argh! I still have the pressure of facing my prelims! The darn thingy...Life's full of oxymorons...that's it! That's life! Isn't it?
Here, I wanna say a many thanks to all those who remembered my birthday, who wished me the u-know-wad-la, the friends and loved ones who gave me presents and last but not least, those who had added spices to my life!!! Thank you soooo much!!!
To my tu di: you are definitely not the one who spoiled the friendship b/w so-and-so and me. It isn't your fault at all. Don't worry too much. Rather, you may want to place your worrying on your "crush" heh? haha!
I should grow up...yea...I know. I've heard many of you guys saying this to me. I know! I know! I know! I will...But my light years are not over rite? Young at heart! That's me! haha!
Lastly, I wanna dedicate this little note to all you guys who are reading my long 'story' & to my very special group of friends, 4E1, ex-classmates, junior prefects, junior guides, hi-5 frens, family, relatives and so on...All the best in your future endeavours! God bless!
If I gave you
Only 5 minutes
To tell me every single
Person that you love
As a friend
Would I be mentioned?
Am I important to you??
What if you died tomorrow
And never got to be with
The person you love
What if I died tomorrow
Would you remember me?
What if we got into a fight
Would we ever be friends again?
Think about all the questions
You would ask your friends
If you died tomorrow....
Would They Care??
I would, you're my friends.
posted @ 3:44 AM
Heartbrokened
I'm so tired. I tried to forget him. During this period of time. But somehow, my friends and ppl around me always make me remember him. I'm frustrated with my friends for being not there when i needed them. I hate myself for thinking what i ain't suppose to think. I feel sad, very sad, when I think of the past. I wish there is none of his presence. I wished soooo much that he's gone. And that no one can ever say me and him together again.
Do true friends trust you? Do they? Or is merely the impression of them makes you think that they are trustworthy, and thinks that they believe what you say. It's a lie!
He's with me though I don't want to see him. He's with me though I don't want to listen to him. He's with me though I don't want to speak to him.
Does that matter to anyone? Does someone out there know how i'm feeling? Who truly believes me? Who truly is there to lend me his/her shoulder?
Today, I quarrelled with my ex-friend. He can say-to-be one of my best buddies. However, the trust is torn apart just by a laughter, a bad, bad, bad laughter. He did not believe what I said. No matter how many times i tried to clarify with him, there was no sense of trust in him. I admit I lied to him, but it wasn't intentional. He said my lies seemed real. And now, he thinks what i'm trying to say is just another one of the lies. He's my buddy, a very rare buddy.
I didn't bother him in the msn. I hang off the phone after saying one or two sentences to him. I
was totally bitter to him. Did i do this for the sake to hint to him that I'm angry with him? No. I just wanted to say that I am indeed very heartbrokened when he didn't trust me. Where's the trust? Am i in the wrong? I do not wish to imply that he's in the wrong too. But, frankly. who, is there for me?
My dad's leaving for China tml. There's no one to side me if i have a quarrel with one of my family members again. Why are there so many problems to handle when exams are here?
I'm sick. Sick of heartbrokened-ness. I sincerely hope that none will mention his name and mine together again. (take the hint) I wish to forget the unhappiness. That's all i wish for.
posted @ 1:07 PM
I.D.L.I.N.G
My first day signing up for this webbie! I just can't resist this temptation! haha! I don't know what's so nice about this bloggy thingy...
Recently, I've been tied down to alotta things. Family arguments, relationships are so-to-say, full of ups and downs.
Prelims are here...but I seemed totally relaxed! Argh! Can't believe what I'm doing! And my younger bro is at there...studying and aiming for LIR5-8pts! He's crazy!
My life's been soooo drained out...I wish to go for overseas study!
The gd thing is, I've watched the new movie, 'TURN LEFT, TURN RIGHT'...so touching...I cried. It's good. U guys should watch it? maybe to improve your insights of love life? haha...
I gotta go and chat wif my frens-the debate on whether to go for chem. remedial...haha! So long, folks!
posted @ 1:21 PM
Phew. Sure is going to be tough.
FIRST UP...
THE BADS:
Im hot-headed. Very easily hot-tempered. BAD BAD BAD.
Im as stubborn as a mule.
I dislike tummy. u know? fats? tummy? ugh.
I particularly moan and groan and roar and scream at ppl who lie to me.
I got a weak heart.
I think i got high blood pressure. Did I mention I get stressed up over the slightest stuff?
OH OH OH. I procrastinate ppl who don't respect me. U really need to take a good look at yourself.
My eyes can pop out. BEWARE.
I think I love bitching.
I eat irregularly. Tat explains me not growing up.
Oh yes. One more. I wake up when the sun sets. COOL HOR.
NOW FOR THE GOODS! YIPPEE!
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I love socialising. alot alot!
I want to become a model of my own world. YAYA. DREAM ON.
I love those who love me. Embrace, cherish and all nicey stuff! *HUGSSSS*
Ah. Yes. I love colouring my toe nails, buying chunky earrings & being pretty though i dun think im worth it.
I LOVE PARADOXES OF LIFE. I LURVE, LURRRVEEEE, LURRRRRRRVVVVEEEEEEEE THEM.
FOR GDNESS SAKE, DUN CLASSIFY ME AS 'CY LOVES TO BE A PRINCESS!' YUCKS. MY TERM: RAGDOLL. ugly and tattered. damn cool.
I can go on forever. I'll just stop here. Know more bout me thru my entries! *wriggles my nose*