My BUSY Day from 7.30am-8.30pm IN SCH!!!
1) I lurfffff
'The Rime of the Ancient Mariner' by Samuel Taylor Coleridge-1 of my Literature texts
2) Spending too much money
3) Band, Band and more Band prac. woo hoo! Made up a whole mess of the percussions! hahaha! With David, the
idiotic clam, hahaha...coz he took those cymbals and purposely shocked me to make me scream, Angeline, WeiQi, J.Lo (the drummer!), and of coz, ME (The 'GREAT' Timpanist & Bass Drummer & Vibes player) hahahaha! I was violent today. Basically. hahahash...Realised that sectionals carry out better in Band room rather than outside the Band room!!! At least I can
CONTROL them. Plus
CONTROL my temper. hahash...
4) Arghhh...have not hold on to the hp for 3 days!!! 72 hrs!!! Limited my conversations with YQ...haish...mommy lo...has to go choa chu kang tt far to do some business. Think submitting tender form or sth liddat...scared she get lost...tt's y she took the hp along with her...hahaha...
5) Had the LANGUAGES (GP and Chi) test today. GP retest. Chi vocab test. Not bad larrhhh...
*cross my fingers*
6) Haven't been slping for
MORE THAN 5 and a half hrs
PER DAY. I am deprived of sleep.
7) Haven't do my homework for today and it's 11.38pm.
8) YQ, no more chocolates!!! hahahaha...
9)
Miss No. 8 (in this list) person.
10) Versatile weather has caused me to feel dizzy...headaches!!!!!
Lethargic fLy
posted @ 2:44 PM
I need a good cry.
Yesterday night at 11pm, YQ said he'll msg mi when he reached hm. Till this morning, I haven't receive any of his msg. at 12 midnight yesterday, i sent him 2 msges. Called him. No answer. This morning, sms him, no reply. until 10am, he replied. So worried...Told him
i hate him for this...made me worry until liddat...at 7th mth somemore...yesterday, couldn't slp well...haish... I dunno whether he and I give each other mutual love or not...
haish...too young to talk bout this ba...Suddenly tot bout Chin Kee, these few times talk to him online
I often get pissed off. Sorry ar...I also dunno why i liddat...da ren you da liang...da ren bu ji xiao ren guo...k?
Now, listening to Jay Chou's new album. Everytime listen to his sad songs
i feel like crying. Dunno why...Kinda remind me of sec sch time. All those fond memories. I'm at the verge of breaking down, suddenly. I dunno why. I'm afraid I'll retain.
I wonder what's stopping me to go to NIE, NAFA, poly or elsewhere. Why go JC when I already have a secured job, i hope, as a piano teacher. I wonder why life is getting so fast, that those ppl who stopped to breathe for a moment are already considered as eliminated from the run. Why didn't I choose design, just because my parents warned me the horrid consequences of taking that course. WHY?! Is it because of the these influences that made me glue back to the stupid education system stuck in S'pore? Isn't education bout
excelling our talents, from a choice of field of courses? Talent + hard work is the most important thing. But, without talent alone, no matter how hard you strive, can you go anywhere? Maybe, but not as high as you expect.
HAISH...
I tell you,
I hate SUAN JIN's attitude!!! Yesterday, he was in chi class disturbing all of us. He had finished his chi assignment already. And so, he went on to do maths. We were trying to concentrate, especially Weiqi, she was soooo irritated that she bang the desk. I let out an unintentional
"TSKKKK!!!" And Suan Jin was making matters worse, he was discussing and being snobbish bout his mathematics methods. Talking loudly in the air-conditioned rm. LOUDLY. and the volume increased gradually. Somemore, if I'm not wrong, I heard him saying "
Of coz I'm clever! These answers of yours are stupid. It's WRONG. WRONNGGGGG!!!" I felt like
giving him a tight-slap...or show my kickboxing skills!!! arghhh-taaaa!!!
Tml got Vectors 2 assignment and have to do tons of Econs hw. My Econs CMI. All the tests for Econs...I've been failing. My other four subjects are all right...My Lit poems by that Desiree Teo, tt mother slug...the one who's always wearing the long dress with pins and wadeva on her rebonded hair...POEMS ar...also muz jia you. Prose and Play can manage. Thurs got Chi F-J vocab test, also never study...and GP retest...think that ms agnes...hantam her...waste my effort...
Life is
tough. It's
really tough. I guess all we have to do is to accept these challenges and the things we hate with a
magnanimous heart.
CrybABy-fLy
posted @ 5:58 AM
FREAKISH
ooo...had a kinda freaky day today. U know, the 7th mth...ya da ya da...Today, when we were changing 1 hr later after PE, outside the LTs (the one that Tessa came), sth
SCARY happened. Weiqi, one of my gang in my class, dialled An Li's hp for about 4-5 times. The thing is, Weiqi didn't call her! She was in the cubicle changing! I asked her to check her call register dialled calls, but, she didn't even had An Li's no. in it. To make matters worse,
An Li received a voice message by Weiqi...And when she dialled, the voice msg was not valid. Freaky enough? Not yet...when we entered LT2 for GP lecture, Ying Shing and Lydia (My 2 other classmates) asked Weiqi what did she call them for. Again, Weiqi didn't call them!!! Check call register and all...but no hp no.s of Ying Shing and Lydia. This whole situation freaked Weiqi. Totally. And XiuWen (Weiqi's so-called best friend in my class) sang some Deng Li Jun oldies to create the
creepy atmosphere. My oh my...k man. That's enough. It really makes my hair stand...
Today, received back maths CA results. Satisfied. But Jasmin, who was on the honours roll and a retainee, scored quite bad I would say, for her definition lah. She looked disappointed. Maybe because all the time, she had gd grades for all her subjects...tt's why it made an impact on her this time round. Think she'll strive on even harder on herself. Compared to my results, i'm like way below her...
haish...
K larsh. Restricted myself to only send YQ 1 sms today. Didn't wan to ka jiao him. Think that'll he'll find me a nag...hahaha...then after AIKIDO class for him today, which he has been taking for quite a long while...he smsed me and called me...asked why so quiet today...hahash...haish...
Miss him lots.
17th Sep-Piano Exam Grade 8!!! So frightened...my whole sep hols is packed with activities! Come on lor...I need to celebrate my bdae!!! Gimme a break!!!
Slept for 1 hr from 7.30pm-8.30pm today. Weiqi, An Li and David kept msging me when i was sleeping, SOUNDLY. ugh...So disturbing...the table was vibrating non-stop...and it deprived me of my 1 hr slp!!! I needed to regain my energy...coz I slept at 2am last nite!!! Just finished re-typing draft 1 of WR, due to my PW member accidentally erasing the soft copy. Gimme a rope. I need to strangle him. Suan Jin. By fri, my grp needa come up with draft 2. So rushing!!!
Everyone muz jia you!!! Just like the athletes and all doing their best for Athens 2004...Interesting...Watched Archery, badminton, Table tennis, tennis, running (short and long distance), swimming, gymnastics over the past few days.
Oh ya, watched
PM Lee's National Day Rally too, yesterday. I got the idea that he's trying to influence the youths of today to be down-to-earth and contribute alot more to the society. And his incentives are very very attractive. The two that caught me the most was 1)
Civil Service-5 weekdays only. No working time on weekends. That applies for NY Band too, I hope! (Cross my fingers) 2) Have more babies.-->leading to 1st 4 chilren having baby bonus. hahaha...he kept emphasizing on tt. I'm beginning to have a gd impression of PM Lee.
Of coz, not forgetting SM Goh. WAHAHAHAHA!!! Very interesting. And his talk is supposed to stick to 2 hrs. but he ended up talking for 3hrs 30min. Long-winded 52 yr old PM. hahaha...but he's humorous...so all right lah...kept me awake...
SM, best of luck for her Phy SPA tml...and everyone, hang on! It's nearing the sep hols!!! And for me, gotta do my maths tutorial, at 12am, in this humid night, now. Gd morning! (CY's accent...) Have a great day ahead!
Perspiring Tiny fLy
posted @ 3:02 PM
A day of Trust and Self-Reflection
BiShan and me indulged in a long conversation today after GP tutorial, at the end of our lessons. My 1st impression of BS-An extreme introvert. Very shy and quiet. She still carries this behaviour towards strangers. But that's natural. For once, I regained confidence. It is her that build up my self-confidence. She brought me to the stage that two friends who know each other only this March has enough trust to tell me her problems. I indeed felt very thankful. I thank her for this trust in me.
I visited the website from EMB introduced by a tutor who do not teach me-www.pathways-to-peace.com. The phrases are profound. Some may find it cliche. I found it special instead. I reflected upon it. And i caught this phrase:
"I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love."-Mother Teresa
There is so much more shown in the video. And during GP today, we questioned on the importance of image in today's society. It all comes under mutual love, to be open and honest with what we're doing. But there's no society that does this. Then, we drifted on to mutual love. Mr Tong taught me that if we love the person anyway even when we hate him/her to the core, then that is love. It is indeed profound, and I found the solution for a person I hate. To love him no matter how much i hate him is what love is all about. It is about forgiveness and acceptance. Let me ask you a question, how many times do you think it takes me to hit you back when you hit me? The answer, it all depends on me. The same applies for loving one another.
Love is when no matter how many times the person hits you, you are able to forgive him/her, because you love the person for who he/she is. If you are not able to do so, it is not unconditional love, even if the blood relations are there.
I saw YX's blog. Hope he feels better. Life is sooo much more other than studies. I didn't choose JC just because I want to get into University. It's just a way of securing my future.
All i want to be is a loving piano teacher. Suan Jin said I am more capable than this. I asked him, what does he think I am capable to become? He answered, a businesswoman. That's not what I want. Maybe. If my progress to my 1st priority fails.
Life can't be any simpler. No more. Why? It is the human nature, the ability to strive to compete and stand out among the rest, that plunges us into the unclear big sea. It is the competition and rivalry amongst us that leads to our disaster. 50 years down the road, 100 years, when will the competition die? Never. Never in human life unless an evolution takes place.
I hope I have not bored anyone out reading my blog, for that is what I've reflected today.
The only way to solve this problem is to keep up with the fast pace in society, only to add more consciousness to unconditional love, coz only a different person can stand out and show this love. Only a minority achieved, such as Mother Teresa and Ghandi.
Can anyone in Singapore do so? Hardly. Maybe never. For we are brought up not to think in that way. For if we do that, we are taught for sure that we will have no future in the highly technological Society.
REFLECTIVE fLy
posted @ 12:23 PM
IMANUEL IS BACK!!!
Wanted to ask advice from my blogger tutor, Twinzee, to teach me to locate the tagboard at the right side of my blog. But the
S.T.M. me, duh, it slipped my mind to ask him when he was online and we were just having a little conversation...apologised to the couple for pang seh-ing them today when we were supposed to have a grp study and i was the sorta organiser. Felt so guilty...boo me.
Skin me alive. Deeply sorry!!!
IMANUEL IS BACK!!! I missed him soooo much, and of coz, my 1st 3 mths classmates. Pang seh SM and YX to meet my 1st 3 mths friends. At heartland mall. Iman was my 1st 3 months classmate too, he's a retainee, 2 yrs older than me, Chinese-Indonesian, but his personality is really gd. He's suave, rich, caring, funny, everything that a perfect friend and bf possess, just that he's a little notorious. haha. And he has a gf. Lucky gal. He went to Canada this yr during march or april, and has been back since 14th August. He just finished his express course in Columbia College and going to Univerysity in September. He's flying off on
911. God bless him. Anw, we met at sakae today and 4 of us, Cindy, YiZhao, Iman and me had a superb conversation. He didn't even mind sharing his family problems. After, we took neoprints! Large size cards! woohoo!
IT WAS TOTALLY CAEWL (COOL)!
Although I wasn't supposed to reach hm at 9pm today, I broke my own rules. I needed to slp as the previous day, I slept at 2am. Yet, no regrets. It was a really really gd conversation. Guess wad?! We're meeting each other plus some of our ex-classmates who can't make it today on Sat nite!!! I can't wait to meet them! Iman knew Yiqin, thru their close fren, Priscilla. And he actually knew the matter bout Yiqin and me. DUH. Told him bout the after 6 mths patch-up thingy. He said Yiqin's a gd guy. I hope I made the right choice. Told YQ bout the matter. And he felt so pai seh...hahahahahaha...
The next big thing, today in sch after CT, as usual, I was teasing classmate BS bout her so-called stead. Rumoured lah. Then, it totally shook me off when she said
"already together". I think I shouted very loudly
"WHAT?!!!" in the tutorial rm that everyone stared at me. haha. She was so pai seh and she ran off. And i ran after her to clarify matters.
WOAH LAH! Being in a gal's sch for 10 yrs, plus her shy personality, I didn't expect her to accept this stage in her life yet. hahaha...looks can be deceiving...hahahaha...congratulated BS...and then she went off to find her 'lesbian', Felicia.
Had a great day today...can't wait for tml band prac to see a whole lot of AKG and can't wait for
sat nite fever, hope we dun go play pool again! hahaha! We've been playing pool everytime we have an outing... I miss my clarinet. Miss YQ.
The 1st time i meet YQ, i tot he was an idiot. oopx!!! hahaha...1st impression ma. And Iman too. I tot they were the 'dao' sort. Then, when I saw PZ (my sec sch classmate in 1st mths SR Band as well) talking to YQ and choosing instruments to play, i just tag along. All the other SLs were busy. In the end, I remained in the clarinet section even though I had a liking for flute, saxophone and percussions initially. Now? I love trumpet, oboe. yea. For now lah. hahaha...Basically, it was clarinets that bonded YQ and me. And to explain the 6 mths after break-up b4 patching, we treated each other like gd frens and got to know better of each other then. hmph. shan't say anymore. Until the next time. For now, I'm just missing him.
I need to replenish my energy.
I NEED TO SLEEP. And I want my dad to stop repeating his words every single night to ask me switch off the lights and everything. And him to stop switching off the lights at the area when I'm using the com. It hurts my eyes. Told him several times, until i had to switch on the lights back again, myself. hmph. All righty, may tml be a gd day ahead.
*Ruth's bloggy freaked sMaLL fLy.*
FRIGHTENED LITTLE FLY
posted @ 2:59 PM
Busii Daeee...
Da
pasar malam in Serangoon is the most massive one I've seen since I was born. It stretched over about 2-3 bus stops if I'm not wrong. It's freaky. And boring in a way since those things that are selling keep on repeating, one stall after another.
After Sat's band prac, saw J.Lo and Cav in Serangoon MRT Station. Think they had some minor prob again.
AGAIN. I didn't walk towards them. I walked straight. Maybe I should leave them alone. Maybe I'm a busybody. When I asked J.Lo wad happened, he didn't wanna tell me. So, I just said Nvm lo. I also can't care tt much. Then he tot i'm pissed. He just blabbered his frustration & worries bout Cav to me. I said "if u dun tell me the prob, i can't give u any advice." Then, we just went onto other topics. Seriously, even though I told him that I'll be there for him if he needs me, I need a break too. Just by looking at the situation between Cav and him, I can't help much. I'm tired listening over and over again, the same old problems that they have. I've tried to give the best advice that I think it is, and it should not be done repeatedly. I should get over with this. Maybe for this matter, I should be selfish (I know it's wrong) to leave them alone, but I am really tired of this. NOW...Had a whole day filled with brainee activities. 10am on a SUNDAY (
HOW CAN TT BE??!!! destroyed ma slp...sobx sobx...)-Had PW meeting @ coffeebean @ Takashimaya. Did until 2+ when we were 'chased out' by some cat-looking woman with thick glasses. hey, we bought drinks and food k. She dared say that we were occupying spaces just because we had lots of worksheets, outline for Written Report and tabulated surveys piling the table.
GRRRR.
3pm-Headed for Piano lessons. Were basically practicing on my t-cher's piano rather than improving on my skills. I NEED TO
PRACTICE LOTSA LOTSA SCALES!!! oh yea, b4 tt, on my way to Somerset MRT station, I dropped by a clothes shop and bought a plain black tee. It's not cotton. Sth cooler than tt when wearing it...hahaha...showed a lil of my belly if i stretch myself. My tummy, rather.
GRRRRR.
6pm-Dad and younger bro came to fetch mi. Went to Maxwell and bought takeaway FOOOODDD. Was too engrossed in reading the Sunday Times till when we reached the Carpark and dad pulled over, I had a sudden headache. Bleahz. 7+pm-online till now.
BOOHOO. Did my feedback form for PW. Crapping ma way thru. Played Tic-tac-toe with Twinzee. I won 2 rounds!!! hahahaha...He was gd in trying to trap me too! Sho clever and sly! hahaha...jk jk...Was a lil pissed with Chin Kee for awhile coz he kept teasing bout my best fren and me. Had to reveal the secret to him as well. Ahhh...
Oh yea...saw Tess' Friendster Toddler Picture just. Had a great laugh...ROFLMAO!!! (Ro-fe-le-mao) The mushroom haircut...hey hey...I had that when i was young too...hahaha..her smile is sho bright...and the gal beside her is shoooo cute!!! (of coz, Tess' cute too!!! =p) hehe...can imagine and somehow being reminded of Tess' laughter now...woohoohoohahaha...*pss pss...she laughs like a witch...
CRUELLA...de de de de BOOM...'HIGHLIGHTS FROM CHESS'...hiak hiak hiak...* I'm guessing. Guessing that Tess is pissed RIGHT NOW. SHHHH...
Right now, feel like plunging into the realm of DREAMS!
WONDERLAND!!! I need to revise my 9233, if I can pull myself awake to do that. haha. Thinking of
YQ. He's busily
stardeeing his 'Physics Vol. 2'. Hmph. I dunno. Maybe we should really find a day and talk to each other face to face. Very soon, I hope. Stardee hard and smart!!! Blessing AKG (those who take Physics), BEST OF LUCK FOR YOUR TEST TML!!! We must, and I MEAN
MUST, go for a camp with those
'wasted' camping tents that we've bought. After the CA, a break is needed, guys...so what are we waiting forrrrr? If youuu needdd it, come and get it,
lalalalalalallaaaa...
zZzZzZzZZzZzzzzZZZZZZ,
Presidante oF *fLy Inc.*
posted @ 2:01 PM
A new look!
I rebonded my hair yesterday. So thin and straight. Lurf it now. It takes my wavy and thick hair away! Gone! Gone...I'm Gone...I'mmm GONNEEE...
BUT, i hate the fringe. Too short. Blah...Waiting for it to grow. grow. and grow.
GP CA is horrendous. I wrote basically, crap today. It will be a miracle if i pass this test.
Had spring cleaning for Band today. My newly polished clarinet!!! Wooooo~~~ Nice nice...Sho happi...just tt awhile later when we played 'Meditation' and 'Gentle Rain', I left fingerprints on the keys!!! That polishing cream...DUH...
Mr Chiang was disappointed that we couldn't attend the philharmonics wind concert.
HEELLLOOO...ppl got Physics CA test lo. Muz study leh. Somemore tml is the last day to study for it. Just calculate the no. of hours spent just by watching the concert, spending the time on transport back and forth, and the time needed to prepare for the concert. Although I do not take Physics, Mr Chiang didn't even bother to state that there are OTHER reasons than
stardeeing...zzz... Ppl got piano lessons lo. 3 weeks more and my exam's here. I'm getting all jittery. Gotten Band tee today. An enormous
ORANGE patch of 'NY
Chio Bu' is printed at the back of the tee. And the crest is not big enough. So fussy hor? haha...I always get upset with T-shirt printings...
Was supposed to meet YQ tonight to catch a movie. In the end, it was cancelled coz I couldn't rush to catch it after Band prac. Too rushing for me. Hai. He's eating dinner with his parents now...*lalala*...
Band's upcoming events:
1) Teacher's Day performance-*Councillors' request*
2) Exchange programme with Dunman High-8/9/04 (1 day before Twinzee's bdae! hehehehe...)
3) Esplanade performance @ the Edge-12/9/04 (1 day before MY bdae!!! Yippee!!!)
4) Tuning-In Session (Newcomers wanting to choose NYJC as their sch of choice)-Oct
5) Combined schs Band-JJC, SRJC, NYJC, one more forgot le. oops.-Should be 2nd week of Dec
*Blah Blah Blah...* (Due to my STM, I can't seem to remember the other events happening between Jan-April)
MAY 05-SYF
I gtg. Momma bought for me mixed veg rice...oooooohh...and after, gonna enjoy my chewy berry gums!!! Ciao peeps!
*fffFFFlllLLLyyyYYY*
posted @ 11:00 AM
A part of you has grown in me,
and so you see, it's you and me,
Forever, and never apart;
maybe in distance but never in heart.
posted @ 10:35 AM
Realli???
Downloaded this new blogskin. NICE colours. PiNk VS BlAcK. 100%100% Pure love? You guys believe? hahaha...anw, love this blogskin, wanted another blogskin but that pic had a gal forcing the boy to kiss her. hahaha...of coz i dun wan it...seems so bitchy... hmmm...hmmmm...hmmm... Maybe I shouldn't have downloaded and change to this blogskin. Maybe..........................................
HOW LONG HAVE I NOT UPDATED MY BLOG???!!! about 2 mths i think...lotsa things happened...lotsa lotsa thingies...will fill in my blanks as the days go by...
After 6 mths, ... After one big circle. Hmph. No comments to make, coz i guess Tessa's hair will stand up. hahaha... My feelings? Somehow or rather elated. hehe...=) But should i go on?
So many pointers on my life's list. Studies, exams, tests, Family, Friends (AKG!!!, Ex 4E1, Someone? Should I? etc), Piano, Band. For now lah. So many...it's overloading...
Hmph. YX and Tessa have the same idea about YQ. And it really has been bothering me. Ahhh. Mei mei??? Maybe ba. Everyone treats me like a mei mei. Why can't i look more mature? My looks sucks to the core.
I dunno wad to say after the 'talking session' with Tess during Band camp and YX now. I have absolutely no comments. Maybe what they say is true. hmm. Band Camp's quite fun. Heard that Kerui in SR Band got the role as BM.
SOOO proud of him!!!
K lah. My mood suddenly saddened. Cya tml. Hope tt u guys will not have to wait for 2 more mths again. Ciao.
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posted @ 11:06 PM
Phew. Sure is going to be tough.
FIRST UP...
THE BADS:
Im hot-headed. Very easily hot-tempered. BAD BAD BAD.
Im as stubborn as a mule.
I dislike tummy. u know? fats? tummy? ugh.
I particularly moan and groan and roar and scream at ppl who lie to me.
I got a weak heart.
I think i got high blood pressure. Did I mention I get stressed up over the slightest stuff?
OH OH OH. I procrastinate ppl who don't respect me. U really need to take a good look at yourself.
My eyes can pop out. BEWARE.
I think I love bitching.
I eat irregularly. Tat explains me not growing up.
Oh yes. One more. I wake up when the sun sets. COOL HOR.
NOW FOR THE GOODS! YIPPEE!
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I love socialising. alot alot!
I want to become a model of my own world. YAYA. DREAM ON.
I love those who love me. Embrace, cherish and all nicey stuff! *HUGSSSS*
Ah. Yes. I love colouring my toe nails, buying chunky earrings & being pretty though i dun think im worth it.
I LOVE PARADOXES OF LIFE. I LURVE, LURRRVEEEE, LURRRRRRRVVVVEEEEEEEE THEM.
FOR GDNESS SAKE, DUN CLASSIFY ME AS 'CY LOVES TO BE A PRINCESS!' YUCKS. MY TERM: RAGDOLL. ugly and tattered. damn cool.
I can go on forever. I'll just stop here. Know more bout me thru my entries! *wriggles my nose*