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How have you been?
38.8 degree celsius! Can you believe it? I'm sooo terribly sick. I'm down with fever, sore throat, headache, cough...wad more? My tastebuds! I dun even know what sweet, sour taste I'm eating after eating those irksome medicine. Let me see. Tablets. Tablets for fever, headache, sore throat. Onli a bottle for cough. TT'S BAD! I dun eat tablets. So I'll have to grind those tablets and put that bitter thing into my mouth.
HEY HEY HEY! Guess wad? I might be able to qualify for a JC if I appeal, and of coz, if CJC recruits me. That's the best JC out of the 20 cut-off pts schs. Recently, suffering from a number of 'heart attacks'...Ms Murty actually told me it's possible for me to go to a JC if she cuts off 2 pts from my LIR5. I tot I was able to go to a JC. Then, she disappointed me by saying that it onli applies for English. I was so depressed. Then, when my report bk came, I keep telling Mr Tan, my form teacher, that he calculated wrongly. I went to seek Mr Siew, my 3E1 AM & EM teacher, who calculated my results. And it was 20!!!(It was 22 at first) However, I still muz appeal...APPEAL!!! God muz bless me...
Tues-Having my phy prac. Thurs-Chem prac. Muz faster get well with God's prayers. May I be able to have a clear mind when I enter the lab. May I be able to smell the pungent gas. May the force be with me.
Just had a little talk wif my so-called 'ex-bf'. We didn't really go into a relationship. But we treat each other as you know la...I asked him bout his prep for exams. He gave me the ans 'like that lor'...then he just log off. Sometimes, I think he's avoiding me. Most of the times. ah...wadeva. So long as i'm fine and he's fine, I'm happy wif it.
And, to the one that recently broke my heart, the guy who admired another gal, I've tried not to sms him. Ok. I'm down to sms-ing him once a week. And it's onli a fwd msg. He doesn't even reply back. Fine wif me. So long as my frens, my faithful and trustworthy frens are wif me, I'm satisfied. Really satisfied.
19/11-my freedom...I gonna dye my hair and pierce one earhole on each ear (I dun have earholes for goodness sake), if my parents allow me to. Of coz, I dun think so la. But I'll pester them. haha! Turning into a bad gal heh, haha! no la...I'm not that bad...serious!
Yea. I think I'll lead a great life...Hmm, Ric, I'm warning you. You better lend me 'Qian nu you hun' VCDS after 'o's. Straightaway. Immediately.
And to all folks, dun overwork yourselves...work hard, play hard...
(GOTTA GOBBLE UP THOSE GRUESOME MEDICINE AGAIN...bye-iiiii~~~!)
posted @ 8:17 AM
GOODBYE...
HEY! TUDI! I'm really sorry for scolding you across msn tt very day. I was feeling fed up you see...So I scolded you for no reason. I'm really really sorry. I hope you can seek more frens in the near future if e1 doesn't seem 'gd' enough for you...For me, on the other hand, I'm satisfied. At least I apologised...I'm fine.
Erm, have to make this quick. My bro will terminate the net access for 1 mth. So I won't be able to check my mail or go to msn or stuff like tt. So, erm, tudi, SL, ric, JLO...can do me a favour? Help spread the msg to kindly ask ppl send me onli necessary stuff in order to prevent my mailbox from flooding. Many thanks!
Erm, wad more? oh yea...I've asked him. And he said he likes someone. At first, I felt terrible. Just like any heartbrokened person. But, things got better (even though it does not seem so la) haha...I just look on the optimistic path of life. Carry on...Don't waste time on what you ought not to waste on. Erm, just be happy...Take things in your pride. A little upset in life is bound to happen. So, the discourage ones out there, smile. You never know when a person falls in love with your smile...*wink wink.
yea...I gtg. Tk ca and blessings for all. Cya. Regarding any matter or wan a chat, call my hse or sms me during weekends. I'll be most likely to reply back if I have the time. So long! Miss ya...hugs!
Cheers,
CY (sending off...fLy~!)
posted @ 6:31 AM
The word---'SORRY'
I now know that two of my classmates know my blog. Maybe more. Tt's MerMer and Cla...tt's all I know for now. Hmmz...Isn't diary suppose to be secretive? Maybe to some...but not to all.
I might be able to go to a JC. If the teacher's promotion meeting raise my Chi to A1 and my Lit. to A2, each both by ONE mark...ooooo~~~~God must bless me! I went to temple today. Dunno why. Tt's very very unusual of me. Maybe it's due to stress. And by the influence of my parents when I was young, I started praying in a temple (To all those buddhas). Still, I believe in each and every God. I told MJ about it. She was shocked. Yet, she accompanied me. Mer and Cla thought I went out wif the guy that I admire. How I wish for that to happen! Haiz...
MJ has a mini hamster zoo in her house. A total of 22 HAMSTERS!!! Crazee gal...She's realli mad...
These few days, I've somehow angered my schoolmate and classmates. Firstly, Maran. Then JLo. And now to Tudi and Eugene. I prayed to ask for forgiveness. This was because of my moody feelings these few days. I was indeed very rude, EXTREMELY rude to them (I would say), and I just felt that I was bad. Very bad. I wanted to apologise to them. But I couldn't find them. Some 'siam' me. I felt guilty. Remorseful. So I used my msn nick as a start first. I think I'll call them...to apologise...yes I will.
Too bad he's not there when I always needed him. I'm trying to forget him. But, it's really so difficult. I'm keeping myself busy everyday. Talking to a bunch of buddies...I dunno why. These few days, my tears was completely 'drenched out'. I cried alot. I had no mood to do hw. No mood to talk to my friends. Arrive in sch feeling lifeless. Come back hm to face the four walls. Listened to my parent's solution for me (which is ya da ya da)...everything was bad. Really. Wanted ppl to console me but in the end, they ended up getting scolded by my sarcastic remarks. Tt's the reason for my attending to the temple to pray for everything peaceful today.
I think tt's all I wanna say today. Once again, sorry to all those that I've been rude to recently...I'm really sorry.
posted @ 11:26 AM
Whose LOVE is greater than GOD'S?
Hmph. Can't go JC. That's all right. MJ and me might tk up as a temporary child care 'teacher' or jie jie la...ahha! I need Ric to confirm wif his relative. On my side, I'm not really confirmed too. Otherwise, I'll just go tk a job like accountancy...I don't want to talk to customers. Just do my own stuff in my little 'office' will do. yea yea...tt's my thinking for now.
I wish he can accept me. I didn't talk, chat or even see him for 2 days. Missed him alot...haiz...alot alot...
Does he even know I'm waiting for him? I don't think so...No one. No one even asks me, "How are you feeling?" All they care are their marks and results and complaining they've not done better. Who cares about their social status??? Practically, onli 1 out of 10 does so. I really wish he gives me a positive answer. I need someone to care for me, now. My friends too. But who cares? Whose love is greater than God's?
posted @ 9:37 AM
My Route in Life
Er hemm...Firstly, TUDI!!! When did I say I was closer to him???!!! In fact, I did told him but he didn't say anything bout it. Oei...like that call closer huh? alamak...('___'lll) So to speak, we just get along as frens. We seldom c each other too. Very seldom...
Hmmph. Everyone in my class is talking about going to JC. Of coz not all la...but most of them. I think I can't go for it. My pts are way up high...not tt high la...juz by 1 or 2 pts i might be able to get in...damn it! And I'll definitely not go to a JC if I can't go for the 1st 3 mths JC course. I can't. Results have proved it. That leaves me with 3 choices. 1st: Go to tk up a 2 week poly course which basically covers every aspect of all courses in SP. 2nd: Go to work (although I seem too small or rather, young to go to work. But this choice is ok.) 3rd: Stay at home and rot...nah nah nah...big boo-boo...bad choice. I might go working. I am to blame for my own results. However, looking on the point of view, this may be a blessing too. At least poly leaves me some courses that I like. Some of my friends think that JC route is better as they do not have to make any choices. They feel that going to poly is a big headache for them as they find no interest in any of the courses. I'm the opposite. Well, it all depends...
Intentionally, I wanted to opt for a 3 mth JC and after, transfer to a poly. At least I can get the experience at a JC. Then, go for my interest in a poly. A saying goes "Follow your heart in whatever you do." It's true. I've tasted the bitterness when I am forced to study subjects that I dislike. Day by day, I'm being trapped in a teeny weeny classroom. My parents and bros believe that JC is only the best way. My dad was kept talking that he went to go a poly when he was studying, in the end, he had to work extra hard to own his own company. Ok. The influence on whether or not to go to JC depends on me alone, right? I mean, no use putting a long face everyday if my family members insist me in going to a JC and I don't want. I can't handle stress. Nor do I have the capabilities to cope with those irking subjects.
Enough bout the JC-Poly stuff. I'm down. Frustrated. Blamed.
I thought I saw him today. But only half his face. haha! The possibility of 50-50 was him. I can't really see him coz I was blocked by the damn concrete wall connected to the classroom door. Hmmph. Can't really tell what's my feeling. So dun really have comments for today...(Qiye...) haha! (Qiye is not his name, but the name of a person in a show that resembles him...)
JLO ar...I really think that you ought to let her know. What's the use of hiding your feelings? Even if not successful, also can be friends right? You pro lor...r5 so gd...you gd...haha!
I think everyone met their expectations. Except me. Nvm. Look on the bright side of life...
Saw SL's tsk tsk today. Too bad she wasn't in class. I think she went to refill water in her bottle.
And erm, ty, you can go to JC le...happy lor...Ric, go work huh? All da best...
And to many out there, congrats. To the ones who are sad just like me, LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE! Life's full of opportunities...Give out your best for da coming 'O's. And to him, best of luck for your major exam.
posted @ 5:43 AM
Phew. Sure is going to be tough.
FIRST UP...
THE BADS:
Im hot-headed. Very easily hot-tempered. BAD BAD BAD.
Im as stubborn as a mule.
I dislike tummy. u know? fats? tummy? ugh.
I particularly moan and groan and roar and scream at ppl who lie to me.
I got a weak heart.
I think i got high blood pressure. Did I mention I get stressed up over the slightest stuff?
OH OH OH. I procrastinate ppl who don't respect me. U really need to take a good look at yourself.
My eyes can pop out. BEWARE.
I think I love bitching.
I eat irregularly. Tat explains me not growing up.
Oh yes. One more. I wake up when the sun sets. COOL HOR.
NOW FOR THE GOODS! YIPPEE!
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I love socialising. alot alot!
I want to become a model of my own world. YAYA. DREAM ON.
I love those who love me. Embrace, cherish and all nicey stuff! *HUGSSSS*
Ah. Yes. I love colouring my toe nails, buying chunky earrings & being pretty though i dun think im worth it.
I LOVE PARADOXES OF LIFE. I LURVE, LURRRVEEEE, LURRRRRRRVVVVEEEEEEEE THEM.
FOR GDNESS SAKE, DUN CLASSIFY ME AS 'CY LOVES TO BE A PRINCESS!' YUCKS. MY TERM: RAGDOLL. ugly and tattered. damn cool.
I can go on forever. I'll just stop here. Know more bout me thru my entries! *wriggles my nose*
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