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Heartbrokened
I'm so tired. I tried to forget him. During this period of time. But somehow, my friends and ppl around me always make me remember him. I'm frustrated with my friends for being not there when i needed them. I hate myself for thinking what i ain't suppose to think. I feel sad, very sad, when I think of the past. I wish there is none of his presence. I wished soooo much that he's gone. And that no one can ever say me and him together again.
Do true friends trust you? Do they? Or is merely the impression of them makes you think that they are trustworthy, and thinks that they believe what you say. It's a lie!
He's with me though I don't want to see him. He's with me though I don't want to listen to him. He's with me though I don't want to speak to him.
Does that matter to anyone? Does someone out there know how i'm feeling? Who truly believes me? Who truly is there to lend me his/her shoulder?
Today, I quarrelled with my ex-friend. He can say-to-be one of my best buddies. However, the trust is torn apart just by a laughter, a bad, bad, bad laughter. He did not believe what I said. No matter how many times i tried to clarify with him, there was no sense of trust in him. I admit I lied to him, but it wasn't intentional. He said my lies seemed real. And now, he thinks what i'm trying to say is just another one of the lies. He's my buddy, a very rare buddy.
I didn't bother him in the msn. I hang off the phone after saying one or two sentences to him. I
was totally bitter to him. Did i do this for the sake to hint to him that I'm angry with him? No. I just wanted to say that I am indeed very heartbrokened when he didn't trust me. Where's the trust? Am i in the wrong? I do not wish to imply that he's in the wrong too. But, frankly. who, is there for me?
My dad's leaving for China tml. There's no one to side me if i have a quarrel with one of my family members again. Why are there so many problems to handle when exams are here?
I'm sick. Sick of heartbrokened-ness. I sincerely hope that none will mention his name and mine together again. (take the hint) I wish to forget the unhappiness. That's all i wish for.
posted @ 1:07 PM
Phew. Sure is going to be tough.
FIRST UP...
THE BADS:
Im hot-headed. Very easily hot-tempered. BAD BAD BAD.
Im as stubborn as a mule.
I dislike tummy. u know? fats? tummy? ugh.
I particularly moan and groan and roar and scream at ppl who lie to me.
I got a weak heart.
I think i got high blood pressure. Did I mention I get stressed up over the slightest stuff?
OH OH OH. I procrastinate ppl who don't respect me. U really need to take a good look at yourself.
My eyes can pop out. BEWARE.
I think I love bitching.
I eat irregularly. Tat explains me not growing up.
Oh yes. One more. I wake up when the sun sets. COOL HOR.
NOW FOR THE GOODS! YIPPEE!
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I love socialising. alot alot!
I want to become a model of my own world. YAYA. DREAM ON.
I love those who love me. Embrace, cherish and all nicey stuff! *HUGSSSS*
Ah. Yes. I love colouring my toe nails, buying chunky earrings & being pretty though i dun think im worth it.
I LOVE PARADOXES OF LIFE. I LURVE, LURRRVEEEE, LURRRRRRRVVVVEEEEEEEE THEM.
FOR GDNESS SAKE, DUN CLASSIFY ME AS 'CY LOVES TO BE A PRINCESS!' YUCKS. MY TERM: RAGDOLL. ugly and tattered. damn cool.
I can go on forever. I'll just stop here. Know more bout me thru my entries! *wriggles my nose*
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